Who Have I Become?
I left my husband to become my own person...stronger...independent.
Had the perfect husband, but wanted more...insanity.
I've spent my whole life avoiding ppl who drink (too much) and those who like to be verbally abusive.
I have my reasons for both.
So what do I do? I involve myself with someone who got completely trashed and proceeded to verbally abuse the living hell out of me.
I know I don't deserve that. I'm better than that. I'm worth more.
The problem is: The chemistry is so intense that I have a really hard time staying mad at him. It's not been so bad in the past because they were small gripes. This one is big. He's not NEARLY sorry enough...and still blames me for his little hissy fit. I swear to you: I didn't do ANYTHING wrong.
I get the distinct feeling that he only means half of what he says.
He constantly contradicts himself.
If I try to talk about something personal, I'm bringing on the drama. If I keep it bottled up, he's pissed that I'm not talking.
He acts like he wants this super casual thing, but then he gets mad when I don't throw myself at his feet. He wants me to beg for just about everything...Well, I won't.
I can do so much better. I deserve some respect.
He won't tell me what he wants but expresses constant distaste for what I give.
He's like a woman...I'm supposed to read his mind and act accordingly.
If I wanted that, I'd go lesbian.
I won't put up with another fit like that. He's the drama queen.
The more he talks, the less I see any kind of future with him.
This is probably good because he should really just be the rebound guy.
BTW...Anyone have any suggestions on how to start this marriage dissolution thing?
I'm looking for cheap and quick.
Had the perfect husband, but wanted more...insanity.
I've spent my whole life avoiding ppl who drink (too much) and those who like to be verbally abusive.
I have my reasons for both.
So what do I do? I involve myself with someone who got completely trashed and proceeded to verbally abuse the living hell out of me.
I know I don't deserve that. I'm better than that. I'm worth more.
The problem is: The chemistry is so intense that I have a really hard time staying mad at him. It's not been so bad in the past because they were small gripes. This one is big. He's not NEARLY sorry enough...and still blames me for his little hissy fit. I swear to you: I didn't do ANYTHING wrong.
I get the distinct feeling that he only means half of what he says.
He constantly contradicts himself.
If I try to talk about something personal, I'm bringing on the drama. If I keep it bottled up, he's pissed that I'm not talking.
He acts like he wants this super casual thing, but then he gets mad when I don't throw myself at his feet. He wants me to beg for just about everything...Well, I won't.
I can do so much better. I deserve some respect.
He won't tell me what he wants but expresses constant distaste for what I give.
He's like a woman...I'm supposed to read his mind and act accordingly.
If I wanted that, I'd go lesbian.
I won't put up with another fit like that. He's the drama queen.
The more he talks, the less I see any kind of future with him.
This is probably good because he should really just be the rebound guy.
BTW...Anyone have any suggestions on how to start this marriage dissolution thing?
I'm looking for cheap and quick.