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I'm feeling very confused. I'm in another "almost" relationship. The kind that you see each other about every other day but you don't acknowledge that you're boyfriend and girlfriend. It's fairly obvious that everything is sort of on that level, but you haven't had the conversation to solidify anything. This isn't the first time I've been in this situation even. When I was with this guy Seth it was sort of the same thing only... different obviiously. I ended up really hurt by him because I was practically broken up with, by a guy I wasn't even with.
I'm starting to worry that this will happen all over again. I'm going to get hurt. I've been seeing Chris exclusively for about two and a half months now and we still haven't had the conversation. I'm actually terrified to even bring it up and he hasn't even showen any signs of wanting to talk about it either. We haven't had a talk about exclusivity either, but we're only sleeping with each other. It's fairly obvious he likes me, but then I had a conversation with my boss about him. She asked him about us a few weeks ago and he said that at this point in his life, and with everything going on, he doesn't want the responsibilities of an actual solid girlfriend...
So am I a placeholder for him? Something to fuck him until he finds some one better, smarter or even prettier? Our status by most standards is that of a boyfriend and girlfriend. Is he fooling himself? Am I fooling myself? Am I setting myself up for failure? It figures something would come along and complicate things. Chris is probably the only nice guy I've ever dated and he'll probably be the first nice guy to dump me, even if it's not really a relationship. So I guess he'd be dumping his "fake" girlfriend.
Fuck nice guys, fuck bad boys. Fuck boys in general. All they do is give me a headache.
I'm starting to worry that this will happen all over again. I'm going to get hurt. I've been seeing Chris exclusively for about two and a half months now and we still haven't had the conversation. I'm actually terrified to even bring it up and he hasn't even showen any signs of wanting to talk about it either. We haven't had a talk about exclusivity either, but we're only sleeping with each other. It's fairly obvious he likes me, but then I had a conversation with my boss about him. She asked him about us a few weeks ago and he said that at this point in his life, and with everything going on, he doesn't want the responsibilities of an actual solid girlfriend...
So am I a placeholder for him? Something to fuck him until he finds some one better, smarter or even prettier? Our status by most standards is that of a boyfriend and girlfriend. Is he fooling himself? Am I fooling myself? Am I setting myself up for failure? It figures something would come along and complicate things. Chris is probably the only nice guy I've ever dated and he'll probably be the first nice guy to dump me, even if it's not really a relationship. So I guess he'd be dumping his "fake" girlfriend.
Fuck nice guys, fuck bad boys. Fuck boys in general. All they do is give me a headache.