I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound...
Fucking Tegan and Sara. I can't help it. lol.
So I'm fighting with myself right now about whether or not I want to smoke a cigarrette. Right now you may be thinking to yourself "But Brandi, you're a smoker. Why is that such a hard decision???" ...and that is a valid point...but somewhere in my twisted reality...I feel like since I'm about to go longboarding I shouldn't smoke before I go, like it will help or something....even though I know damn well I'm gonna even smoke while longboarding. lol. I make no sense. I know. Just let me have these irrational thoughts and humor me lol.
I was just informed that my longboarding may be cut short...so I'm smoking. lol
I want to change my fucking myspace picture, but my fucking computer is soooo gay.
Most of my sentences start with "I". Is that a sign of my vanity? lol.
Today is Thursday. My favorite day of the week. It just feels like the day that majority of everyone looks forward to in this area. lol. The alliance has the best reason though.
Jack's mannequin makes me happysad. And i can't listen to my favorite fucking band anymore. i never thought there would be a day that I skip over Spill Canvas on cds and playlists. It's gotten to the point where that band has too many attachments for me and kinda makes me hurt. I have that shit on my body, and don't regret it for one second...but that doesn't mean I don't get sad when I see it. I miss her. I really do. Things got bad, and now it's like a cluster of good memories (bad too). Sometimes I want to go back to like 2 years ago. I don't know if we can ever get back to that point. Well....the Spill Canvas makes me sad for 2 people actually. The one who introduced me to them, but we have different songs than Ak and I. Therefore both albums hurt. lol.
Enough of that emoness. Emo is what i do best though. lol.
I have to pick hannah up today. That girls wants me so badly. lol. I just can't seem to want to do it to her. I have a million reasons...but the biggest one is just simply the fact that I can't bring myself to want to do it. lol.
Hollywood Nights makes me wanna just drive.....like get in the car and drive....to no destination in particular....just drive. I used to have hollywood nights. That's what I would think about while I was driving. All my hollywood nights. Good fucking memories. I partied like a rockstar and didn't give a fuck. Sex, drugs, and electronic music. lol. Mexico. Vegas. Hollywood. Long Beach. Pico Rivera. Sunken City. Melrose....The hills. sigh.
It's time for new memories to miss. That's what Thursdays are for.
So I'm fighting with myself right now about whether or not I want to smoke a cigarrette. Right now you may be thinking to yourself "But Brandi, you're a smoker. Why is that such a hard decision???" ...and that is a valid point...but somewhere in my twisted reality...I feel like since I'm about to go longboarding I shouldn't smoke before I go, like it will help or something....even though I know damn well I'm gonna even smoke while longboarding. lol. I make no sense. I know. Just let me have these irrational thoughts and humor me lol.
I was just informed that my longboarding may be cut short...so I'm smoking. lol
I want to change my fucking myspace picture, but my fucking computer is soooo gay.
Most of my sentences start with "I". Is that a sign of my vanity? lol.
Today is Thursday. My favorite day of the week. It just feels like the day that majority of everyone looks forward to in this area. lol. The alliance has the best reason though.
Jack's mannequin makes me happysad. And i can't listen to my favorite fucking band anymore. i never thought there would be a day that I skip over Spill Canvas on cds and playlists. It's gotten to the point where that band has too many attachments for me and kinda makes me hurt. I have that shit on my body, and don't regret it for one second...but that doesn't mean I don't get sad when I see it. I miss her. I really do. Things got bad, and now it's like a cluster of good memories (bad too). Sometimes I want to go back to like 2 years ago. I don't know if we can ever get back to that point. Well....the Spill Canvas makes me sad for 2 people actually. The one who introduced me to them, but we have different songs than Ak and I. Therefore both albums hurt. lol.
Enough of that emoness. Emo is what i do best though. lol.
I have to pick hannah up today. That girls wants me so badly. lol. I just can't seem to want to do it to her. I have a million reasons...but the biggest one is just simply the fact that I can't bring myself to want to do it. lol.
Hollywood Nights makes me wanna just drive.....like get in the car and drive....to no destination in particular....just drive. I used to have hollywood nights. That's what I would think about while I was driving. All my hollywood nights. Good fucking memories. I partied like a rockstar and didn't give a fuck. Sex, drugs, and electronic music. lol. Mexico. Vegas. Hollywood. Long Beach. Pico Rivera. Sunken City. Melrose....The hills. sigh.
It's time for new memories to miss. That's what Thursdays are for.