I'm against a cure for diabetes existing but out of people's reach. It has been my dream in life to be cured, and I gave up on it ever happening because I thought no one cared enough to fund the research. Well, people did and now it exists - kind of. It's not in human trials yet because the money's still missing to do this properly. I'm not counting on the government or big business or celebrities or any of the usual 'charity' targets to come through with the cash. They might, but I'm not expecting anything. (I don't like to think of myself as charity, but I guess I have to get over the stigma because I am asking for money for a good cause.) What I do expect is for me to do what I can to make this happen, and I'm trying to figure out what that is. I signed up with avon thinking it would give me the flexibility I need to be a diabetes advocate, while providing me an income to survive on my own and also contribute to this cause with money. I'm having a hell of a time making it not cost me money, and it's taking all my time and energy away from what I need to be doing. I can't just stop, though, I need to make this work. So, I'm giving part of every single sale I make to Reach For The Cure. I need help. I don't know people in san diego well enough to talk about me and my diabetes! I don't know sales well enough to sell without a cause, I mean the only sales I've ever done is when I was a kid. So, I want to hold parties where I can talk about the products, talk about my experiences and my quest, but to who? where? I don't have a place of my own to host from. I guess I have to go meet some people. It's hard to think of thinking clearly because I must be aware that I'm not rational right now because my blood sugar level is 326. I feel like crap. I gave a shot to bring it into range. In an hour or so, I'll check again to see what's up. I'm not having a 'bad day,' this is part of everyday. I'm sick of feeling sick! I want to know what it's like to choose food just because it tastes good, without having to think about what inevitable damage it's doing to me. I want to have the option to live without a schedule and not have it affect my sugar control. I went off the insulin pump because I couldn't stand giving myself one more ...oh god that thing was barbaric. (That was a big decision, a freeing one, that came about because a new kind of insulin was introduced to the market, one that worked for 24 hours with a minimal peak time and could - in theory - replace the basal function of the pump. I can't sum up what living with the pump was like all those years, and it's only been off my side for a year so it's hard to succinctly say what I traded for what and how it's affected me - but I know one thing: I'm glad that breakingdown piece of shit is in a box. I don't mind shots so much now that I'm remembering doing the pump every day.) And if anyone says, "well, you must be doing it wrong," I'd like to see them try this. I mean, it's not like insulin is an exact science, we're all making this up as we go along. It's a lousy treatment for a lousy disease and a CURE is here. And all I'm asking for is ten bucks. Okay, that and I'm asking you to read this ;)
It has been my dream in life to be cured, and I gave up on it ever happening because I thought no one cared enough to fund the research. Well, people did and now it exists - kind of. It's not in human trials yet because the money's still missing to do this properly. I'm not counting on the government or big business or celebrities or any of the usual 'charity' targets to come through with the cash. They might, but I'm not expecting anything. (I don't like to think of myself as charity, but I guess I have to get over the stigma because I am asking for money for a good cause.)
What I do expect is for me to do what I can to make this happen, and I'm trying to figure out what that is. I signed up with avon thinking it would give me the flexibility I need to be a diabetes advocate, while providing me an income to survive on my own and also contribute to this cause with money. I'm having a hell of a time making it not cost me money, and it's taking all my time and energy away from what I need to be doing. I can't just stop, though, I need to make this work. So, I'm giving part of every single sale I make to Reach For The Cure.
I need help. I don't know people in san diego well enough to talk about me and my diabetes! I don't know sales well enough to sell without a cause, I mean the only sales I've ever done is when I was a kid. So, I want to hold parties where I can talk about the products, talk about my experiences and my quest, but to who? where? I don't have a place of my own to host from. I guess I have to go meet some people.
It's hard to think of thinking clearly because I must be aware that I'm not rational right now because my blood sugar level is 326. I feel like crap. I gave a shot to bring it into range. In an hour or so, I'll check again to see what's up. I'm not having a 'bad day,' this is part of everyday. I'm sick of feeling sick! I want to know what it's like to choose food just because it tastes good, without having to think about what inevitable damage it's doing to me. I want to have the option to live without a schedule and not have it affect my sugar control. I went off the insulin pump because I couldn't stand giving myself one more ...oh god that thing was barbaric. (That was a big decision, a freeing one, that came about because a new kind of insulin was introduced to the market, one that worked for 24 hours with a minimal peak time and could - in theory - replace the basal function of the pump. I can't sum up what living with the pump was like all those years, and it's only been off my side for a year so it's hard to succinctly say what I traded for what and how it's affected me - but I know one thing: I'm glad that breakingdown piece of shit is in a box. I don't mind shots so much now that I'm remembering doing the pump every day.)
And if anyone says, "well, you must be doing it wrong," I'd like to see them try this. I mean, it's not like insulin is an exact science, we're all making this up as we go along. It's a lousy treatment for a lousy disease and a CURE is here. And all I'm asking for is ten bucks. Okay, that and I'm asking you to read this ;)
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