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Good News:
I have no homework
Bad News:
I wasted a Friday night doing it
I'm so dull lately. Why can't I be hanging out, having a good time instead of being stuck at home and bored, to the point where I do my homework. It's so irritating, to think of what everyone else is doing and then to realize I am doing absolutely nothing compared to it. The hardest thing though is not being pessimistic about my life. To not feel bad for myself. It's kinda like I still do, I mean nothing has changed for the better but I just don't share it with people, because its not what they want to hear. I am so irritated by you. Guys won't like you if you're not happy. Ya well girls won't like you because you're annoying and ssssooooo irritating. And then you..well I just can't stop thinking about you, because well mainly you say such wonderful things but at the same time I don't know if you mean them and If you actually are interested. And I really hate white supremacists. I hate arrogance. I hate egotism. I hate racism. I hate the words fag and retard and queer. I hate that feeling in your stomach when you know somehing is gonna go wrong. I hate chili dogs. I hate Women's Chorus. I hate the fact that i have no grandparents. I hate that my brother is having a baby. And I hate smokers. I hate alcoholics. I hate talking about people behind their backs. I hate deceitfulness. I hate that I hate all thses things. But most of all I hate myself for hating everything, never being happy, because in the end I'm the only one who can besatisfied with myself. I decide if I'm happy. You make me unhappy. So do you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you. Just make me smile.....And it will be the best thing in the world for me. Just to smile.