Judgment free zone, indeed.
Hm....I sure do lead a very interesting life. I truly appreciate the life that I have. I have an able, healthy body. I have food, shelter, and a job. I have a kitten that I love, and a few very good, close friends. I am starting to love my body and to see it as truly beautiful. I just joined Planet Fitness, which is already making my life wonderful. Exercise is my drug of choice, so I am extremely happy every day now. I am really beginning to treat my body as a temple. I am striving for perfection but I know that it is not necessary or reasonable, so most days I am satisfied with my body the way it is (and what it's becoming-better always).
I haven't been on a date since I became single. I'm trying not to want to meet someone, but it's hard not to. Who doesn't enjoy the thrills of early romance? The freedom, the freshness of it all. More than ever am I ready to connect fully with someone, but I feel completely stranded here in Maine. I never seem to meet anyone, as I am always at work. I am also trying not to indulge in my intense feelings for my ex. I don't know what they mean, or if that matters, or if they should be acted on. I have never been in a situation quite this strange. I have always just bolted from everyone. He was such a big part of my life for so long, though. I am not looking to be monogamous no matter what happens, so probably nothing will come of it, anyway. It just seems a shame in a way, though, because we share such a strong, unique, intense connection. Maybe it is too soon, or maybe it is not enough. Fortunately, I am moving soon. I'd really like to date an athlete, a dancer, or someone who shares my passion for movement, exercise. I've realized it's an intrinsic part of my life, and I can't imagine sharing my life with someone who doesn't share that passion. I'm discovering what I really want in a lover, which is very exciting. I'm discovering a lot about myself in general. I have always been so indecisive, to the point that I could change myself constantly to suit others. I'm learning to be more decisive--that making decisions is a natural part of life. I suppose I want everything, being a Sagittarius. I can't help it! ;)
Alright, I am exhausted from the monumental amount of exercising I've been doing this week. Goodnight! :)
I haven't been on a date since I became single. I'm trying not to want to meet someone, but it's hard not to. Who doesn't enjoy the thrills of early romance? The freedom, the freshness of it all. More than ever am I ready to connect fully with someone, but I feel completely stranded here in Maine. I never seem to meet anyone, as I am always at work. I am also trying not to indulge in my intense feelings for my ex. I don't know what they mean, or if that matters, or if they should be acted on. I have never been in a situation quite this strange. I have always just bolted from everyone. He was such a big part of my life for so long, though. I am not looking to be monogamous no matter what happens, so probably nothing will come of it, anyway. It just seems a shame in a way, though, because we share such a strong, unique, intense connection. Maybe it is too soon, or maybe it is not enough. Fortunately, I am moving soon. I'd really like to date an athlete, a dancer, or someone who shares my passion for movement, exercise. I've realized it's an intrinsic part of my life, and I can't imagine sharing my life with someone who doesn't share that passion. I'm discovering what I really want in a lover, which is very exciting. I'm discovering a lot about myself in general. I have always been so indecisive, to the point that I could change myself constantly to suit others. I'm learning to be more decisive--that making decisions is a natural part of life. I suppose I want everything, being a Sagittarius. I can't help it! ;)
Alright, I am exhausted from the monumental amount of exercising I've been doing this week. Goodnight! :)