a bunch of shit i need to unload.

[more_sass]

theres nothing i can write
to compliment this process
over processed and
under the influence
i smile for you
i do all of these
ridiculous
7pm rituals
for you
i no longer want to look in the mirror for you
i want to see me
just once
so i can feel
what its like to be
beautiful again.

new discoveries
bending back wards
to grasp firm handshakes
multiply my hopes and divide by zero
every equation
is going to answer my way
this mathmatition has a new formula.

i need a talent i can show off and say
"this is mine and you cant have it."

i wish i could capture this day
for the rest of my life
post it on the front of a postcard
and send one everyday
to everyone i love
so their lives can forever be filled
with the beauty and comfort
i see and feel at this very moment.

i feel the pressure and you apply perfectly
just so i bleed enough to feel
but not enough to be buried 6 feet
under
or over
we wrestle with facts
floating above like nasdaq
my stocks have been shooting up ever since i placed this bet
i wager my heart like ive never been spent
and i still feel alive after so many nights
of turning in that grievance form
when my shifts with you
come to an end.