no, i don't seperate thoughts or ideas in paragraphs.

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i'm not going to work tonight. i really really should, but i can't bring myself to face it. ya know? i really really hate it right now. well, i think i really really hate it in general. i had a nice time getting a pedicure with lindsay today. it was nice to spend time with someone besides just kate. she really fucked me on sunday. she slept through her shift that she was supposed to be covering for me. errr. both of us got really drunk after work on saturday with ratboy and jeff. i didn't even want to, but i couldn't stop myself. i can never stop myself. that's exactly why i need a new job. one without so much in your face temptation. i won't go into the details. i think i'm standing on the edge of actual adulthood, debt. not mine, nick's, but really, as it stands, its the same thing kinda. i'm tired of living night to night. making so much money and having absoulutely nothing to show for it. i'm just feeling bad and scared in general right now. here i am, talking about how i need to make money and shit, and i'm taking the night off work. in addition to the $50 pedicure, nick and i went out to dinner, proclaiming that it will be the last time in long time, we dropped $70. okay. i have to go take pictures of all my crap to sell on ebay. try to be at least slightly productive. also, i'm planning on getting my tongue split at Hell city, i'm scared i won't be able to take it. i've been psyching myself out, and it's still 3 weeks away. i just don't know. i'm getting my frist bigger tattooo friday, so i guess i'll see how i take that. if i chicken out on this tongue split, i'm gonna hate myself. what a fucking pussy.

sorry for being annoying.