New Year? Ok...
I realized how we say new year but really, it's all just the same... Not this year. It can't be. I'm sick, and I mean SICK of things always ending up the same as last year. Being disappointed over things... Being disappointed of myself... Psshh... It's getting old!
This year, I'm really going to try to focus on school and fencing. I mean it. You guys are probably rolling your eyes and saying "yeah right." Uh huh, part of me is saying that, too. But I don't want to continue with the damn cycle that I've been rotating in since I-dunno-when. I want to achieve something bigger than myself.
I used to hate my English 12 professor. Sir _____. He still annoys me so but he makes a good point on how much my family spends (financially, emotionally, spiritually, whatever-ally) on my Atenean education. I better take advantage of it. What a waste naman diba? (And I'm talking to all you other bums out there also, even if you're from another university or college) Think about it. There are thousands out there who'd kill (or who have killed) just to be where we're at. And what do we do? Cut class to play DOTA or some other network game or whatever (No offense, Butch hehe)??? WTF?! We complain on how the Philippines has such a badass economy, but we're not really helping now, are we?
Another thing my professor brought up that really struck a light in me. ERAP. How different are we from ERAP who got into fights, smoke, drank and couldn't even finish school? He came from a rich family and was offered the best education and necessities their money could buy, but look what happened... DO WE WANT TO BE THE NEXT ERAP??? If you answer yes, think about that real well... I haven't heard of anyone who wanted to be an overweight criminal. If you believe that to be your calling, though, then be my guest and run off to the nearest bar and get wasted...
With regards to fencing... It's what's been there for me ever since. I owe so much to the sport and to the people who have helped me and continue to support me. My team. My coaches. I may not be the best. But I'll get there...
I just hope and pray these things come to pass successfully. Happy new year to you all and may it really be new!