I Am Nothing More Than A Little Boy Inside Who Cries Out For Attention
I realized that I don't really update when i'm in a good mood. I guess cause I don't really vent much, this is my solace. Arrite, anyway:
Friday comes, and Jamie has been hanging out with this kid Stan for a little. He just got out of the marines and i don't trust him. After doing a heart to heart, I realized it's her a don't trust. I asked her best friend if I thought she'd do anything with him, and she told me no. I felt a lot better, but when Jam showed up at band practice, she was pissed at me cause she found out. The entire fucking practice. It was my practice, and she has no right to be there unless she's there for me. Okay, so i'm an asshole. Anyway, when she left, I was chillen, and I called her. We were yelling at each other like crazy, and we ended it. Yea...for good this time. It was mutual, but more her decision. Whatever.
Saturday comes, and I have Erica Ducore's graduation party to go to. Jamie comes over after work and we talk. She tells me that friday night she hooked up with Stan. Go fucking figure. I stay calm and explain that I'm happier as friends. The party comes, and she comes late cause Randi didn't pick her up like planned. She's upset, but she told me beforehand it was cause of her dad. I left my friends to take a walk with her cause I figured it would make her feel better. She still leaves afterwards, and 5 minutes later, I find out that she not only hooked up with him, but gave him head. Yea...she's a dirty slut. I was sooo tense I walked...and walked...and smoked, and walked...and walked...all the way from Manalapan to Red Bank. I know, i know. I'm insane. I wanted to get hit by a car. She left the party to hang out with Stan.
Sara walked with me the whole way. I told her to leave me alone, but she wouldn't. I owe her my life.
Everyone else was realllyyy supportive, and i thank you all for that. So I worked sun and went to my aunt's pool with my cousin Jaime. I love that kid.
Monday comes, and it's me and Jamie's 3 month. After school she comes over and gives me gifts she bought at the mall. A stress ball with music notes on it and a keychain that says I Love You. ;'(
She also got three cards. All explaining how she's so sorry and misses me like crazy. She apologized since Sunday, and it's been getting to me.
Since she went out of her way for me, I spent the day with her. We played basketball, catch, ate, layed in the grass...it was a lot of fun. She wants to be my friend so bad, but I don't think I could handle that.
I feel like I still want her. I know I do. But I would never.
I'm really confused. I don't think I should even talk to her. She says she's telling Stan that she doesn't feel that way about him and dropping him, but she's lied to me before and I have no respect, nor trust for her.
K, I've kept u long enough and I have to go get my last hepatitus B shot.
Don't forget to come to Birch Hill June 21st to see STANDARD THEORY. $10/ticket, doors at 6.
-Robby
Friday comes, and Jamie has been hanging out with this kid Stan for a little. He just got out of the marines and i don't trust him. After doing a heart to heart, I realized it's her a don't trust. I asked her best friend if I thought she'd do anything with him, and she told me no. I felt a lot better, but when Jam showed up at band practice, she was pissed at me cause she found out. The entire fucking practice. It was my practice, and she has no right to be there unless she's there for me. Okay, so i'm an asshole. Anyway, when she left, I was chillen, and I called her. We were yelling at each other like crazy, and we ended it. Yea...for good this time. It was mutual, but more her decision. Whatever.
Saturday comes, and I have Erica Ducore's graduation party to go to. Jamie comes over after work and we talk. She tells me that friday night she hooked up with Stan. Go fucking figure. I stay calm and explain that I'm happier as friends. The party comes, and she comes late cause Randi didn't pick her up like planned. She's upset, but she told me beforehand it was cause of her dad. I left my friends to take a walk with her cause I figured it would make her feel better. She still leaves afterwards, and 5 minutes later, I find out that she not only hooked up with him, but gave him head. Yea...she's a dirty slut. I was sooo tense I walked...and walked...and smoked, and walked...and walked...all the way from Manalapan to Red Bank. I know, i know. I'm insane. I wanted to get hit by a car. She left the party to hang out with Stan.
Sara walked with me the whole way. I told her to leave me alone, but she wouldn't. I owe her my life.
Everyone else was realllyyy supportive, and i thank you all for that. So I worked sun and went to my aunt's pool with my cousin Jaime. I love that kid.
Monday comes, and it's me and Jamie's 3 month. After school she comes over and gives me gifts she bought at the mall. A stress ball with music notes on it and a keychain that says I Love You. ;'(
She also got three cards. All explaining how she's so sorry and misses me like crazy. She apologized since Sunday, and it's been getting to me.
Since she went out of her way for me, I spent the day with her. We played basketball, catch, ate, layed in the grass...it was a lot of fun. She wants to be my friend so bad, but I don't think I could handle that.
I feel like I still want her. I know I do. But I would never.
I'm really confused. I don't think I should even talk to her. She says she's telling Stan that she doesn't feel that way about him and dropping him, but she's lied to me before and I have no respect, nor trust for her.
K, I've kept u long enough and I have to go get my last hepatitus B shot.
Don't forget to come to Birch Hill June 21st to see STANDARD THEORY. $10/ticket, doors at 6.
-Robby