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I guess I'm just having an off day. I was gonna call the adopting parents, but forgot their number at home, and then I tried calling like every person on my phone, just to talk because I'm stuck at work and bored as hell, but everyone was busy, or didn't answer, and its not surprising that people don't call me back. I must have done something to make people just not like me or something. No one ever really considered me a very close friend, but at least they talked to me, and invited me places, but now all I do is work and go to school. I haven't been out to see anyone in months. Actually the last time I went out was the day before I got pregnant, and two days before I totalled my car. I get a new one in January, but whats the point if I have no one to visit? I miss people. God I miss them so much. It's bad enough that I'm pregnant, and that her daddy doesnt care, but on top of that I feel so alone. It would be so much easier if I had help. I couldn't imagine how people do it. Any of it. Sometimes I wish I had the abortion. But whenever I think that I regret thinking it. I just dno't know anyone anymore. I always dreamed that I would be with my friends forever, living like the looser I am shoved into a tiny apartment with whoever would pay rent. But instead, I'll probably be at home through college, and move away soon after. Maybe if I move away someone will miss me and I'll have a reason to come back. I just wish someone would call and talk to me...