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I'm bored as hell and utterly exahsted. I still have at least an hour of homework left, and my room is still in peices. I dunno I guess my whole day has just been in peices. I was ok for a while, then took tylenol for my blinding headache, then just got all moody and sad. Yay for pregnancy hormones. I'm glad I didn't get to the point of being mean to anyone though. Thats a bad habbit of mine recently. One wrong move and my bitchy pregnant ass is screaming. Thats probably what starts the headaches. That and high blood pressure I think, but I go to the Dr. tomorrow so I'll find out. Enough ranting I'm skipping the whole point of even signing on. For a long time I was really mad at my dad for abandoning me, expecially like this. I mean who in their right mind can tell their daughter to have an abortion or move out? What a fucking asshole. Now I'm just man and hurt, maybe more hurt then I like to admit. I mean I had so much faith in him. I trusted him with my life, and I relied on him for alot still, but instead of doing what he should have done, he turned me away and dumped me on my mom who only took me in out of pity. I don't know if there isn't a person who badmouthed me to her asking why she would even let me near this house again. Honestly, I don't regret a thing I've ever done, because I accept them as have already passed in my life, and that includes everything me and my mom have ever fought about. That doesn't mean I don't hold grudges though. Not against her though...against my dad. That ass. I can't beleive the things he does. There are so many of them, but I don't even know where to start anymore. I'm just too tired today. I'm too tired everyday.