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I couldn't even wait until I got home to update, lucky for my my teacher saw my crying earlier so she let me use her computer no questions asked. I just dont know anything anymore. i want Ncik to read what I wrote last night, but then again I don't. I'm not going to delete the entry because I know that I shouldn't but there is still so much I have to say. Nick why do I like you so much? Why? Why can't I just be a friend and not have to torture myself over someone who is just as confused about life. I'm so stressed today. Friday I move. I dont want to, I cant, I think I'm going to sleep in my car this weekend, spend some time alone, think, maybe I'll just drive off a fucking cliff. Then I have to go back to my moms tho, or I know she'll call the cops. Shes going to treat me like a criminal, I know she already does. Even if I get a good job anytime soon, she wont let me without a 10 inch leash. This summer is going to be hell. People say they'll keep in touch, but it never happens. I'll be alone in my moms house all summer. I dont want to go, I'll feel so far away, and it takes me 20 min to get back over here from there. 20 min is not that long, but when people call me and they need something I wont be here in time. Please, just kill me, and I'll love you forever.