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I can't fucking sleep. I was going to get online earlier while it was still technically yesterday, but I was too fucked up to care.Yesterday sucked. Nick broke up with Nicki yesterday, and punched walls and doors all day because he hadn't wanted to. It's my fucking fault they had to break up and I feel like shit. Trish broke up with Amanda and shes broken, I dont know what I can do to help her. So I went to John Young Elementary so I could just chill and write for a while and some shit hapens. Nick's ex, Jessica, shows up and is like, hey I know you. Then Nick shows up, looking mortified that me and his ex are talking when he didn't even plan on calling me back yesterday. I stayed for a while, hopeing I'd at least be able to talk to him, went over to the swings, got tired and when I was leaving they were in eachothers arms. My dad's right, he's too young for me. He can't handle anything more than freshman bullshit that happens every year with those kind of people. I'm just going to stay home this week. My dad isn't home and hasn't been since I left yesterday after school. Well he was, but I wasn't here to see him. I kinda hope he doesn't come home. I dont want to see anyone. I dont want to go to school. But I fucking have to.