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[morbidsoulsrus]

Gah...I'm bored...theres nothing to do...I still have homework to do, but I'm busy painting my nails like a girl and procrastinating. Damn that long word I probably spelled it wrong. I'm kinda down today. Found out that not only did Michelle break up with me but she did it for a guy that she's been flirting with for two weeks. Two weeks man. That stung. Not only was it two weeks but it was for some ugly short guy. A guy! Oh well...time to move on again...or just be damned to the single life once again. What is it with people these days? I dont even know. I dont even want to get into it. I just cant stop thinking about him. Elan. Damn him. I cant beleive hes married now...to someone else. Theres still that whole where he was. We had the best relationship. He'd pick me up everyday after school. We'd get coffee, smoke a few cig's, have mad sex until we couldnt anymore, smoke more, drink more coffee, he'd take me home and we'd have more wild sex. It doesnt make me feel any better to be randomly thinking of all the guys I've done since him. I feel shitty about it. I miss being in a good realtionship. I miss the sex. Damnit I miss him....
You were my sunshine,
My only sunshine,
You made me hapy,
When skies were gray,
You'll never know dear,
How much I love you,
And yet you blew,
My sunshine,
Away.