dare you to move
so the past couple of days have been ok. I don't really feel like i've been too happy for some reason. I'm not even excited for christmas for some reason. I just feel like no one cares anymore. No one talks to me ever, i'm always the one to start conversations, and everytime i talk to someone its seems like they don't even want to talk to me, i can just see it in them that they don't want me to be there talking to them. Every time i get online, its to talk to people, but that never ends up happening. I mean i try to talk to people but hardly do i ever get into an actual conversation with them beyond "hey, whats up?, how are you?" after that it just dies. I don't really care anymore, i've decided that i shouldn't care about it, it always has been like this though i don't know why i'm just realizing it.
i don't care about school anymore, i mean sure i will do homework, but not like i used to. I used to try to get good grades, but now i just do enough to make myself have somewhere around a B average. i know i could do better, but i don't feel the need to. My parents don't really care about my school career anyways. They used to push me to do good, but now they hardly ever ask. If they don't care, why should i? they used to want to know every detail about school, but now all they care about are grades, i guess they feel like i can fend for my own, and if it looks good on paper, its good enough for them.
i also feel like i've lost my best friend. I don't really hang out with eric anymore, nor do i feel like he wants to. i know it probably sounds dumb, because everyone moves on and what not, but i never thought of what i would do with out him. I used to talk to him all the time, we would call each other and talk online. But now i don't ever talk to him on the phone anymore, and the same for online. If i do at all it is about hanging out, which never really happens, maybe like once every other weekend. A lot of the time when i ask to hang out wiht him its too late, he already has something going on, or is hanging out with craig. Its like its all one big game and i'm always the loser.
I am hanging out with Woody more often now though, that kid is the best... no his whole family is the best. I love the Saccos. its time to end this, and on a good note.
i don't care about school anymore, i mean sure i will do homework, but not like i used to. I used to try to get good grades, but now i just do enough to make myself have somewhere around a B average. i know i could do better, but i don't feel the need to. My parents don't really care about my school career anyways. They used to push me to do good, but now they hardly ever ask. If they don't care, why should i? they used to want to know every detail about school, but now all they care about are grades, i guess they feel like i can fend for my own, and if it looks good on paper, its good enough for them.
i also feel like i've lost my best friend. I don't really hang out with eric anymore, nor do i feel like he wants to. i know it probably sounds dumb, because everyone moves on and what not, but i never thought of what i would do with out him. I used to talk to him all the time, we would call each other and talk online. But now i don't ever talk to him on the phone anymore, and the same for online. If i do at all it is about hanging out, which never really happens, maybe like once every other weekend. A lot of the time when i ask to hang out wiht him its too late, he already has something going on, or is hanging out with craig. Its like its all one big game and i'm always the loser.
I am hanging out with Woody more often now though, that kid is the best... no his whole family is the best. I love the Saccos. its time to end this, and on a good note.