Is it me?
well... meg no longer gets online so i can't talk to her anymore :-(... i don't really think i qualify as one of her friends as i thought i did. i don't know why but it just seems like she doesn't want to talk to me anymore... its quite saddening. i guess i may have to find someone new to like, which i really don't want to do becuase meg is one of the most awesomest girls i have ever met. And besides that she is the sister of one of my BEST friends... although it may sound weird, its not. i guess i have just become attached and i don't want to let go. Its kind of bad, me being single and all and being attached to someone this much... i should be "playing the feild" or whatever... but i just don't want to. what i want is her..
but yea, so she doesn't get online, only to check her mail, and doesn't really talk to me inschool.. it completely sucks. Before i was talking to her online alot, nearly everyday, and talking inschool alot more... but now it seems like she has like put up a barrier with the note on the outside "Elliots not wanted here".
i don't know wwhat to do, i will just have to let my heart decide, which isn't always a good thing but.. what else is there to do. I think its me or something, like she doesn't like me for some reason... ugh if i could only know what she was thinking all the time so i could just find out if i am wasting my time, trying to get something working. i just want a hug... that would satisfy my for awhile. but i don't think i will get that any time soon.... do you ever notice how when i gilr asks for a hug, its not weird at all, but then when a guy does, its like automatic "oh this guy likes me". I just think that is messed up...
but anyways, i'm off... Keep it real
but yea, so she doesn't get online, only to check her mail, and doesn't really talk to me inschool.. it completely sucks. Before i was talking to her online alot, nearly everyday, and talking inschool alot more... but now it seems like she has like put up a barrier with the note on the outside "Elliots not wanted here".
i don't know wwhat to do, i will just have to let my heart decide, which isn't always a good thing but.. what else is there to do. I think its me or something, like she doesn't like me for some reason... ugh if i could only know what she was thinking all the time so i could just find out if i am wasting my time, trying to get something working. i just want a hug... that would satisfy my for awhile. but i don't think i will get that any time soon.... do you ever notice how when i gilr asks for a hug, its not weird at all, but then when a guy does, its like automatic "oh this guy likes me". I just think that is messed up...
but anyways, i'm off... Keep it real