I'm naked...........
.....you just can't see it.
I feel like I'm missing out....on so many things really. Lately I've just been so introverted and lathargic and only hanging around/talking to a very select group of people, and it just seems like I've missed so much in my friend's lives, and I wanna see people again. I dunno, I'm just finally 100% okay and I need more friends, it gets so boring here sometimes. So, if you wanna do something call me, or leave your number in a comment and I'll call you. It's just I'm gonna start working soon and I won't have much time for anything until I get use to it, so I wanna just go out and hang with a bunch of different people. Heh...the other day I was going through some things, and it's amazing how much I've changed, and grown, and matured. It's kinda scary really...but I don't know, I can't complain....I like the person who I am, not really who I've been, but I eventually learned just to be myself rather than what I thought that other people wanted me to be. I'm still just so happy, and well, even though my plans I had for today fell through, and if you knew what it was then you'd know how badly I wanted it to happen, I'm okay...and believe me, it will happen soon. But I'm not going to go out of my way to make it. God, I use to be so kiniving(sp?) I would do or say whatever it took to get what I wanted, and given that I usually did, I was never satisfied with it....it's so much better just to wait on it, and if what you really wanted comes to you without any games of plots or ploys then it just feels so great. I still don't know why I was always the way I was. And I was so fucking shallow to, I didn't even realize all these things about myself, until now....just looking back, I was a bitch, I was fake, shallow, snobby, I was horrible....and this is my apology to all those that I treated badly due to my selfish motives...being populatity. That was just what I was use to...it had always just came naturally to me, ever since kindergarten, and then in 7th grade, when I came here, I had to fight for it and I was willing to go to any lenghts to get it. Now I'm just kinda like, what the fuck, either like me or not, but I'm not changing for anyone. I feel so strange, like some sort of wanna be philosopher, coming up with all these things, I've just had to much time to think lately, well I suppose since I just now got it all figured out...just the right amount of time to think...and I've learnt so much about myself, and it just feels so great to finally be happy beacuse of me, not because of whatever guy happens to be giving me his attention at the time. Well, I'm talking to a lot of people right now, so I'm gonna go....besides you're prolly tired of reading all this shit you don't care about...sorry, nothing exciting has happened in the past few days. Fuzzy wuzzy was a bear, fuzzy wuzzy had no hair...fuzzy wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy was he..sorry...a convo between me and angi..oh hell, it was the most amusing thing all day...next to my convo with terry...so I'll put it in here..... <333
Please do not try to follow this....you may get confused. OOunderonesunOo [12:44 AM]: meow
M04N4M3 [12:45 AM]: bunny noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:46 AM]: *gasp*
OOunderonesunOo [12:47 AM]: hair noise
M04N4M3 [12:47 AM]: *louder gasp*
M04N4M3 [12:47 AM]: rainbow noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:48 AM]: wait for it.... wait for it
OOunderonesunOo [12:48 AM]: AIR NOISE!
M04N4M3 [12:49 AM]: hey..it kinda does really make a noise...
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: when the wind blows..wind is air, is it not?
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: no it doesn't. wind does, but air doesnt
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: wind is wind
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: i didn't say wind noise
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: but that's what wind is sorta
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: i said air noise
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: it's air in a way
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: yeah...well...letter noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:51 AM]: lol
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: now I have a weird noise in my head that I think that a rainbow would make
OOunderonesunOo [12:52 AM]: lol!!!!!!!
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy was a bear
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy had no hair
OOunderonesunOo [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy wuz he?
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: yes he was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: he was.....you can't tell me he wasn't
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: I just did
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: :-(
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: but...fuzz
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: fuzzy,.......he was too....hair....it was just invisible....
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: he had hair, you just couldn't see it
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: lol
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: kinda liie we are naked?
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: like*
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: yes
OOunderonesunOo [12:54 AM]: lol, ok
M04N4M3 [12:54 AM]: see..so he was fuzzy
OOunderonesunOo [12:54 AM]: so unlike us, he really wasn't naked?
M04N4M3 [12:55 AM]: yeah
M04N4M3 [12:55 AM]: he wasn't naked, you just couldn't see that
OOunderonesunOo [12:55 AM]: lol
I feel like I'm missing out....on so many things really. Lately I've just been so introverted and lathargic and only hanging around/talking to a very select group of people, and it just seems like I've missed so much in my friend's lives, and I wanna see people again. I dunno, I'm just finally 100% okay and I need more friends, it gets so boring here sometimes. So, if you wanna do something call me, or leave your number in a comment and I'll call you. It's just I'm gonna start working soon and I won't have much time for anything until I get use to it, so I wanna just go out and hang with a bunch of different people. Heh...the other day I was going through some things, and it's amazing how much I've changed, and grown, and matured. It's kinda scary really...but I don't know, I can't complain....I like the person who I am, not really who I've been, but I eventually learned just to be myself rather than what I thought that other people wanted me to be. I'm still just so happy, and well, even though my plans I had for today fell through, and if you knew what it was then you'd know how badly I wanted it to happen, I'm okay...and believe me, it will happen soon. But I'm not going to go out of my way to make it. God, I use to be so kiniving(sp?) I would do or say whatever it took to get what I wanted, and given that I usually did, I was never satisfied with it....it's so much better just to wait on it, and if what you really wanted comes to you without any games of plots or ploys then it just feels so great. I still don't know why I was always the way I was. And I was so fucking shallow to, I didn't even realize all these things about myself, until now....just looking back, I was a bitch, I was fake, shallow, snobby, I was horrible....and this is my apology to all those that I treated badly due to my selfish motives...being populatity. That was just what I was use to...it had always just came naturally to me, ever since kindergarten, and then in 7th grade, when I came here, I had to fight for it and I was willing to go to any lenghts to get it. Now I'm just kinda like, what the fuck, either like me or not, but I'm not changing for anyone. I feel so strange, like some sort of wanna be philosopher, coming up with all these things, I've just had to much time to think lately, well I suppose since I just now got it all figured out...just the right amount of time to think...and I've learnt so much about myself, and it just feels so great to finally be happy beacuse of me, not because of whatever guy happens to be giving me his attention at the time. Well, I'm talking to a lot of people right now, so I'm gonna go....besides you're prolly tired of reading all this shit you don't care about...sorry, nothing exciting has happened in the past few days. Fuzzy wuzzy was a bear, fuzzy wuzzy had no hair...fuzzy wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy was he..sorry...a convo between me and angi..oh hell, it was the most amusing thing all day...next to my convo with terry...so I'll put it in here..... <333
Please do not try to follow this....you may get confused. OOunderonesunOo [12:44 AM]: meow
M04N4M3 [12:45 AM]: bunny noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:46 AM]: *gasp*
OOunderonesunOo [12:47 AM]: hair noise
M04N4M3 [12:47 AM]: *louder gasp*
M04N4M3 [12:47 AM]: rainbow noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:48 AM]: wait for it.... wait for it
OOunderonesunOo [12:48 AM]: AIR NOISE!
M04N4M3 [12:49 AM]: hey..it kinda does really make a noise...
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: when the wind blows..wind is air, is it not?
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: no it doesn't. wind does, but air doesnt
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: wind is wind
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: i didn't say wind noise
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: but that's what wind is sorta
OOunderonesunOo [12:50 AM]: i said air noise
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: it's air in a way
M04N4M3 [12:50 AM]: yeah...well...letter noise
OOunderonesunOo [12:51 AM]: lol
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: now I have a weird noise in my head that I think that a rainbow would make
OOunderonesunOo [12:52 AM]: lol!!!!!!!
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy was a bear
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy had no hair
OOunderonesunOo [12:52 AM]: fuzzy wuzzy wasn't very fuzzy wuz he?
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: yes he was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
M04N4M3 [12:52 AM]: he was.....you can't tell me he wasn't
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: I just did
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: :-(
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: but...fuzz
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: fuzzy,.......he was too....hair....it was just invisible....
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: he had hair, you just couldn't see it
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: lol
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: kinda liie we are naked?
OOunderonesunOo [12:53 AM]: like*
M04N4M3 [12:53 AM]: yes
OOunderonesunOo [12:54 AM]: lol, ok
M04N4M3 [12:54 AM]: see..so he was fuzzy
OOunderonesunOo [12:54 AM]: so unlike us, he really wasn't naked?
M04N4M3 [12:55 AM]: yeah
M04N4M3 [12:55 AM]: he wasn't naked, you just couldn't see that
OOunderonesunOo [12:55 AM]: lol