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At midnight tonight this journal will no longer exist... Fair warning. It is 4-26-2006, the day I have stated I will remove this journal from the internet for good.
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One final word to my faithful readers - whoever you may be,
This life we live is a journey, and although we do know that Death is inevitable, we shouldn't forget the time that we have now. We experience many things in life, and it is true that at times we feel as though we can never return to normalacy and comfort. Time heals all wounds - and it is time to heal... Never should any living being lay down in defeat, for only when you decide that you should give up have you truly been defeated. At times we may feel the most horrible emotions known to man, but if we hold out, if we accept what we feel, we can and are able to move on and find peace. This world is not what we want it to be, it is only as it is - we cannot change it... The only things that we are truly able to change is our own selfs... People seem to think it is impossible to move beyond old ways of thinking, or to open ourselves up to broader visions - we are more capable than we give ourselves credit for. ... We know in our hearts when something is not right, but in the end we have to be the one to accept what we know to be fact and fantasy. ... Depending on how long you've been reading this journal, and seen how many twists and turns I've made, you know that this is true. ... Change is very real, very possible, but it has to start from the source of your inner world - which is you... You have to pay attention to how you see things, and the first sign that something isn't right you have to stop and find out which detail does not make sense... Removing obstacles hurts, but it also brings relief.
I only hope that my words have helped someone, somewhere, in some way.
May you all know Light, Love, and Laughter.
Blessed forever be.
Shade
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I will be starting a new journal, but it will not serve the purpose that this journal has - My new journal will only feature a positive outlook on the lessons I have learned thus far on my journey.
I will not post the new journal in this one - I refuse to defile it purpose by placing it's name within this journal... If you would like to know it, let's hope you see this post before later on tonight... My email is MJoelPowers@gmail.com ... email me and I will put you on my friends list... Next thing on the agenda is the fact that my new journal will only be in friend posts, except for the very first one....
I feel no regrets in taking this journal off of the internet - it has only served one purpose for me, and that was to remind me of my pain... I will no longer wollow in self-pity... I am better than that, and I am stronger than that.
I do hope that somewhere along the way this journal was able to help someone, maybe someone stumbled upon it and realized that there is someone out there who understands? I don't know, I can only hope.
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MorbidLunatic no longer exists for me, he is only a distant memory.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
One final word to my faithful readers - whoever you may be,
This life we live is a journey, and although we do know that Death is inevitable, we shouldn't forget the time that we have now. We experience many things in life, and it is true that at times we feel as though we can never return to normalacy and comfort. Time heals all wounds - and it is time to heal... Never should any living being lay down in defeat, for only when you decide that you should give up have you truly been defeated. At times we may feel the most horrible emotions known to man, but if we hold out, if we accept what we feel, we can and are able to move on and find peace. This world is not what we want it to be, it is only as it is - we cannot change it... The only things that we are truly able to change is our own selfs... People seem to think it is impossible to move beyond old ways of thinking, or to open ourselves up to broader visions - we are more capable than we give ourselves credit for. ... We know in our hearts when something is not right, but in the end we have to be the one to accept what we know to be fact and fantasy. ... Depending on how long you've been reading this journal, and seen how many twists and turns I've made, you know that this is true. ... Change is very real, very possible, but it has to start from the source of your inner world - which is you... You have to pay attention to how you see things, and the first sign that something isn't right you have to stop and find out which detail does not make sense... Removing obstacles hurts, but it also brings relief.
I only hope that my words have helped someone, somewhere, in some way.
May you all know Light, Love, and Laughter.
Blessed forever be.
Shade
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I will be starting a new journal, but it will not serve the purpose that this journal has - My new journal will only feature a positive outlook on the lessons I have learned thus far on my journey.
I will not post the new journal in this one - I refuse to defile it purpose by placing it's name within this journal... If you would like to know it, let's hope you see this post before later on tonight... My email is MJoelPowers@gmail.com ... email me and I will put you on my friends list... Next thing on the agenda is the fact that my new journal will only be in friend posts, except for the very first one....
I feel no regrets in taking this journal off of the internet - it has only served one purpose for me, and that was to remind me of my pain... I will no longer wollow in self-pity... I am better than that, and I am stronger than that.
I do hope that somewhere along the way this journal was able to help someone, maybe someone stumbled upon it and realized that there is someone out there who understands? I don't know, I can only hope.
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MorbidLunatic no longer exists for me, he is only a distant memory.