The colder your touch the more it turns me on. And the faster beats my heart.
My finger is bleeding onto the keyboard. It looks kind of kewl actually. Jervis just dropped me off a little bit ago. I actually like him more than I thought...I don't know if that's good or bad. He is a lot different than I thought he was.
I told him yesterday I didn't want to fall in love with him. I have been being harshly honest with him and it's kind of pissing me off. I think I am so harsh out of fear. That was a really asshole thing to say and it's not even entirely true. I just don't want to get hurt. He is a really great guy from my experience so far, I would love to...well...I don't know. I don't want to finish that.
I guess what I meant to say to him is that I am too scared to fall in love with someone, again. I am just really scared to trust someone that much right now. I mean it's REALLY early in the relationship, but I fall in love easy...I think. I just know there is a potential chance and it scares me. Love is a big deal to me...I know what it's like and I know what breaking up with someone you love is like. Its hard shit. I don't want to be in love with him then sometime in the future go through a me and Zach again.
We have a lot in common, which is really kewl. I really like talking to him, too. We don't really talk about serious shit much...we kind of argue them. I like talking to him though. He makes some valid points from time to time. I like people who can challenge my opinion, but then agree with me when they know I am right...and vice versa.
I went to his apartment today. It was a cute place, but kind of creepy because he had a bunch of pictures of Sarah all over. Not that I got a problem with her...but yea, seeing pictures of your boyfriends ex all over is a bit disturbing. I know he hasn't gotten a chance to do anything with them yet, but yea...
I gotta go to church tom. then I'll probably hang out with him and Jeffyboy. Hey! My finger stopped bleeding.
He gave me 3 of his shirts and a pendawin. I love that pendawin it is sooooo cute. I think I'll name it...Portia the Pendawin. I usually carry some stuffy around with me everywhere I go, usually a carbear though. Now, I can carry Portia around. It's so cute. (If you read this thankee for Portia and the shirts babe. XOXOXOXO.)
I told him yesterday I didn't want to fall in love with him. I have been being harshly honest with him and it's kind of pissing me off. I think I am so harsh out of fear. That was a really asshole thing to say and it's not even entirely true. I just don't want to get hurt. He is a really great guy from my experience so far, I would love to...well...I don't know. I don't want to finish that.
I guess what I meant to say to him is that I am too scared to fall in love with someone, again. I am just really scared to trust someone that much right now. I mean it's REALLY early in the relationship, but I fall in love easy...I think. I just know there is a potential chance and it scares me. Love is a big deal to me...I know what it's like and I know what breaking up with someone you love is like. Its hard shit. I don't want to be in love with him then sometime in the future go through a me and Zach again.
We have a lot in common, which is really kewl. I really like talking to him, too. We don't really talk about serious shit much...we kind of argue them. I like talking to him though. He makes some valid points from time to time. I like people who can challenge my opinion, but then agree with me when they know I am right...and vice versa.
I went to his apartment today. It was a cute place, but kind of creepy because he had a bunch of pictures of Sarah all over. Not that I got a problem with her...but yea, seeing pictures of your boyfriends ex all over is a bit disturbing. I know he hasn't gotten a chance to do anything with them yet, but yea...
I gotta go to church tom. then I'll probably hang out with him and Jeffyboy. Hey! My finger stopped bleeding.
He gave me 3 of his shirts and a pendawin. I love that pendawin it is sooooo cute. I think I'll name it...Portia the Pendawin. I usually carry some stuffy around with me everywhere I go, usually a carbear though. Now, I can carry Portia around. It's so cute. (If you read this thankee for Portia and the shirts babe. XOXOXOXO.)