why i do the things i do
is it so much to want to have a happy life?
all ive wanted my entire life is to be happy.
to have a family.
to be well off enough to not have to stress out over buying food and other essentials.
to be able to do things i loved with my time, and still be a productive memeber of society.
i think i am going to stop going to school, at least for a while.
i need to find an office job.
i need to become something more than this.
i never thought i would be struggling at this age. i was doing so well at 17, 18...i thought it would only be uphill.
but i was wrong.
i never imagined being single.
i thought by now i would be planning a life with my love. thinking about a family. doing those mundane tasks that most people seem to think are a waste of time nowadays.
im not cut out for this era.
i should have been born in the 1500's, the 1800's even the early part of the 20th century.
but i am not that fortunate.
instead i see the world around me falling to pieces. i see people succumb to stupidity more and more.
i dont want to be here anymore. this world is slowly killing me. i need to find a refuge, an escape.
i need to move on.
bye
all ive wanted my entire life is to be happy.
to have a family.
to be well off enough to not have to stress out over buying food and other essentials.
to be able to do things i loved with my time, and still be a productive memeber of society.
i think i am going to stop going to school, at least for a while.
i need to find an office job.
i need to become something more than this.
i never thought i would be struggling at this age. i was doing so well at 17, 18...i thought it would only be uphill.
but i was wrong.
i never imagined being single.
i thought by now i would be planning a life with my love. thinking about a family. doing those mundane tasks that most people seem to think are a waste of time nowadays.
im not cut out for this era.
i should have been born in the 1500's, the 1800's even the early part of the 20th century.
but i am not that fortunate.
instead i see the world around me falling to pieces. i see people succumb to stupidity more and more.
i dont want to be here anymore. this world is slowly killing me. i need to find a refuge, an escape.
i need to move on.
bye