diet log
I am on my 4th day in a row of some kind of physical activity. I went to the gym monday, tuesday and wenesday. Tonight I have my belly dancing class with my step-mom. I am kinda upset though because last night I went to the club and realized that I am a fucking amazon next to some of the girls that go there. My friend Shadow is the perfect size. She's like 5'5-5'6 and about 120. I am even taller then some of the men that go there. I am even taller then Eric. I just wish that I could notice weight loss by the time that combichrist comes around which is in about 3 weeks give or take.
I just remember standing next to dj Jinx at Necto a couple of weeks ago and I tower over that guy. I used to be proud of being tall but when I started getting taller then my mother she used to get mad at me and call me a big fat amazion bitch and I have to bend over to hug all my friends.
I am upset that I have never been able to be what everyone else wants me to be. I am to tall, I am to fat, I am to ugly. I am not goth enough, I am not industrail enough, I am better looking with glasses. I am tired of these confusing signals and other dumb bullshit.
Well enough bitching for now
I just remember standing next to dj Jinx at Necto a couple of weeks ago and I tower over that guy. I used to be proud of being tall but when I started getting taller then my mother she used to get mad at me and call me a big fat amazion bitch and I have to bend over to hug all my friends.
I am upset that I have never been able to be what everyone else wants me to be. I am to tall, I am to fat, I am to ugly. I am not goth enough, I am not industrail enough, I am better looking with glasses. I am tired of these confusing signals and other dumb bullshit.
Well enough bitching for now