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[morbid_melody]

A girl died in 1933 by a homicide murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she

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[morbid_melody]

Ash..
NO
NO
NO
NO
NO

I DONT want you to fast for me.
Lose weight, great.
But, NOT fast.
I have been dong a lot of thinking.
And, I am fucked up enough already.... and having anorexia..
really isnt a thing to want to have.
And, fine, yes, I have ED's, and I do have slight anorexia and bulimia but I don't agree with people doing damaging things to themselves. This includes self harm and starvation. SURE, I am veyr much pro-ana right now but I still know that it is not a good thing to have.
I have had COE all my life..and now I have ana.
And, I dont want you to get to the point where you will not be able to control it fully. And, I dont want to get there either.
I know you have ED's, and so do I.
But, people I really care for..I dont want them doing anything damaging to themselves.
Yes, I want you to lose weight!
But, not to fast for me.
If you want to fast, thats ok
but NOT for me.
Heavily restrict instead.
I love to restrict and... to not eat.
I like binging and purging.
But, I still KNOW it's wrong.
I am so happy I motivate you to keep on track!!!
And, to think thin and stay on target.
But fasting is actually harmful..
so, I would not want you to do that.
xxxxxxxxxxxx

[lilwillow18]

I'm sorry that I upset you that much. Lol. I'm not as good with restricting...I already feel so out of control. I mean, God, I don't want to bring up my problems, because I feel like yours are enought to keep you occupied.

[morbid_melody]

dont be silly
i am like an online therapist LOL
seriously, you can bring up anything with me.
but make it private

better to send to me on yahoo messenger. =)
and, yes i have enough shit to deal with but fuck it..
i care about you x

[lilwillow18]

I like playing therapist...I mean, I'm probably not the best, because I rather talk to people about their issues rather than tell them to stop...

Same here.

<3

[seosaimhthin]

If you have anorexia/bulimia, first consider how having it is going to affect your kung fu. No food, no energy. No nice chunk of body weight or body mass, no moves. Can't concentrate, can't relax. Brittle bones, no defences. The shakes will kill your stance and forms. Lack of fluid in the joints, no punches, no fingerstrikes.

You'll have all the drive you want, all the desire, all the will to succeed. All the potential, all the ambition. And... it'll all go to waste. You won't have the body to take you there.

You're progressing through the system, can see by your posts. I remember the same time - it's great, it's fun. Getting your siu lim tao down, starting chum kiu. But when you start your second form it gets hard. Mindnumbingly so. Suddenly all your joints must flow in one motion. You have to isolate each one independantly - know how your shoulders move, know your hips, know your elbows. Sometimes you'll move hip+elbow, sometimes shoulder+hip.

Won't work if your body has other things to be worrying about. You'll hit the mother of all plateaus. And the sad thing will be is that without taking care of yourself, both physically and mentally, you risk not getting over it. Your body won't have the physical power to stretch itself; that'll kill you off mentally.

So for all the reasons you do it and all the reasons that aren't enough to stop you now, remember, these beginning stages are great because you're finding your feet and your confidence soars. But you're coming much closer to the between-form-mid-point where you'll need the 'bridge the gap' between them, and you'll need your body working well for it.

So just remind yourself "this is really going to mess up my kung fu." next time you're doing it.

Just a few thoughts.