Its funny....

[morbid_dezirez]

Today I was thinkin... We just had a hurricane and it was crazy scary this time. But it actually made me think once I finished mah book of course. Anyways, It made me think. Made me think about how many people I know would actually miss me. And when it comes down to it. Its a total of like four. And two of them are out of state. So makin that 2 in state. Sort of sucks when you think about it. FORTUNATLY. I also though of a remedy. This remedy is to stop giving a damn about what others think of me. I am who I am. And thats all that I am, you know? There is nothing I can do to change the way people feel about me. There is nothing I can do to change the way that I am. Its been implanted. HELL mah best friend Jacques doesnt even communicate with me anymore. Know how sad that is, that I drove him off? IT FUCKING SUCKS. I miss him and he will never know because he does not care to talk to me. I still member the day we met, thats how long it has been. I dont know, I wish I could call him or something. I do miss him a lot, Im losing everyone that I even speak to as well. Jennie... GONE. She doesnt like to talk to me anymore. Jaime... GONE! I somehow pissed her off by talkin to Jennie. Edith... GONE! I dont know she and I just dont talk anymore, I dont know if Im at fault or not, I can however catch a hint! Mays... GONE! I dont know about this one either. The only person I talk to really is Justin and Random people that I dont know that IM me. It is weird when the only thing I have are strangers you know? Also, Happy Birfday E! Uhm.... I dont know how to continue this. All I can say is that we made it thorugh another hurricane and now another is on our doorstep.

I wish there was someway I could fix all the wrongs I have commited in life. There isnt. I know there will never be a way to do this. So should I just accept my losses. Should I actually put my heart back on my sleeve, and try to resolve a situation for which there is no resolution? HELP!