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Hello everyone. I have returned. The post earlier was a excited rant. You can read why. Well I spose I need to let everyone know about whats goin on in my life again. So here it goes.
Well lets see the last time I did anything in this journal was from my girlfriends house. Yes I did get a g/f. I like Shannon and all. I just think that she isnt the one for me. Kelly has come back to my life. The thing is she acts like she wants me. She also acts like she wants my roomate. I dont know what to think about that. It makes me feel like shit. OR like Im being used in some grand scheme of some malicious act. I dont know. Its whatever. Anyways, back to the Shannon thing. I like her. I really do. I just think that I could be happier with someone else. I know that everyone thinks that I was always lookin for a relationship. I thought I was too. I think finally I started to like being single though. Or it could be that I just want to be with someone else I dont know though. Its real confusing.
Well I still dont have a job. I know. It sucks soo bad. I am starting to feel really bad about myself. It honestly seems like I am cursed to not have a job right now as is. I have gone on three different job INT's. Nothing has come from any one of them. I do however have another one tomorrow to which seems to be a very promising job offer. I actually spoke to the manager of this place through IM's because I, dont have a phone line at the house yet. Its for a data tech company. Basically Im goin to be building Clusters and what not. Linux, FreeBSD, Mac and Windows. I really hope I et this job.. If I do then I will in the long run be able to work for more TECHNICAL Places and finally get on my way to making the salary I need to. I will also be able to getmy liscence back. YaY for Carl. I cant wait to sit behind a Suburu. I am goin to get a rally edition I believe.
So this Monday. I am finally goin to meet Keri. Keri is someone I have talked to for years now online. I will finally get to meet her with my ex-fiance at their new apartment. Im excited and nervous at the same time. Its weird you know? I think that is about it. I just am all fucked up inside because I like two people and one is hurtin me and what not. The other I dont know if I could be with for the long haul. I need to figgure this all out.
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.
Well lets see the last time I did anything in this journal was from my girlfriends house. Yes I did get a g/f. I like Shannon and all. I just think that she isnt the one for me. Kelly has come back to my life. The thing is she acts like she wants me. She also acts like she wants my roomate. I dont know what to think about that. It makes me feel like shit. OR like Im being used in some grand scheme of some malicious act. I dont know. Its whatever. Anyways, back to the Shannon thing. I like her. I really do. I just think that I could be happier with someone else. I know that everyone thinks that I was always lookin for a relationship. I thought I was too. I think finally I started to like being single though. Or it could be that I just want to be with someone else I dont know though. Its real confusing.
Well I still dont have a job. I know. It sucks soo bad. I am starting to feel really bad about myself. It honestly seems like I am cursed to not have a job right now as is. I have gone on three different job INT's. Nothing has come from any one of them. I do however have another one tomorrow to which seems to be a very promising job offer. I actually spoke to the manager of this place through IM's because I, dont have a phone line at the house yet. Its for a data tech company. Basically Im goin to be building Clusters and what not. Linux, FreeBSD, Mac and Windows. I really hope I et this job.. If I do then I will in the long run be able to work for more TECHNICAL Places and finally get on my way to making the salary I need to. I will also be able to getmy liscence back. YaY for Carl. I cant wait to sit behind a Suburu. I am goin to get a rally edition I believe.
So this Monday. I am finally goin to meet Keri. Keri is someone I have talked to for years now online. I will finally get to meet her with my ex-fiance at their new apartment. Im excited and nervous at the same time. Its weird you know? I think that is about it. I just am all fucked up inside because I like two people and one is hurtin me and what not. The other I dont know if I could be with for the long haul. I need to figgure this all out.
Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.