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To care or not to care has been the most recent one.
I dont think I should anymore.
I mean whsts the worst that can happen?
Last night Justin and I talked for like an hour. I think it was a decent talk. Somehow it was about me and my life. Then his. THEN OMG WARP DRIVES.... THEY SUCK. Anyways, No It was about the current situations in my life. They are like weird you know? Its like I cant control anything that I feel or do anymore. I dont know why but thats, the case. I know that I cant control what other people do and what they think. IT WOULD BE FUCKIN NICE THOUGH. I think I have a disorder. I WANT TO RULE THE WORLD. Closet like. You know? hahahaha. Anyways, I dont know if I am havin troubles with Kelly or not. I spose it doesnt matter, we are just friends. No matter how much I want something else. Its blah. Always she says she needs more time, and I am more than willing to give that to her. I just get frustrated. I think its me and impatience. I dont know. Its whateffuh. I sat and cried last night for at least an hour. IT SUCKED. I think I needed it. It put some things into perspective for me. I do know however I would kill myself if I were on the series Star Track. because somehow Relationship speak, turned into STAR TRAK SPEAK. And the relative size of models and the shittiness of conduit drives and ship designs. OK for example. DS9 HAS FOUR HUNDRED FUCKING FLOORS BEING AN INCH TALL. Where as the BORG CUBE. ONly has two if that until later in the series. ITS MORE THAN FOUR FUCKING TIMES LARGER THAN DS9, AND HAS ONLY TWO FLOORS. Why is it every episode something goes wrong with the main warp drive or some stupid shit like that. WHY? Yea this is how geeks talk about relationships... Dont ask.
But to put it all into perspective. I know that I cant get Kelly to speed up and like me, it ist plausable. Its goin to take time, more so on her part. I just wish if she wasnt feeling me in that way, that she could tell me so I would get over my own feelings. And just be a friend to her. Know what I mean. As I was tellin J man last night. I was brough up to be an asshole, and trained myself to be someone with a heart. Soemone who anyone can talk too, without being judged. Maybe thats my downhill. Who knows. I dont. Heres lookin atchu im out.
I dont think I should anymore.
I mean whsts the worst that can happen?
Last night Justin and I talked for like an hour. I think it was a decent talk. Somehow it was about me and my life. Then his. THEN OMG WARP DRIVES.... THEY SUCK. Anyways, No It was about the current situations in my life. They are like weird you know? Its like I cant control anything that I feel or do anymore. I dont know why but thats, the case. I know that I cant control what other people do and what they think. IT WOULD BE FUCKIN NICE THOUGH. I think I have a disorder. I WANT TO RULE THE WORLD. Closet like. You know? hahahaha. Anyways, I dont know if I am havin troubles with Kelly or not. I spose it doesnt matter, we are just friends. No matter how much I want something else. Its blah. Always she says she needs more time, and I am more than willing to give that to her. I just get frustrated. I think its me and impatience. I dont know. Its whateffuh. I sat and cried last night for at least an hour. IT SUCKED. I think I needed it. It put some things into perspective for me. I do know however I would kill myself if I were on the series Star Track. because somehow Relationship speak, turned into STAR TRAK SPEAK. And the relative size of models and the shittiness of conduit drives and ship designs. OK for example. DS9 HAS FOUR HUNDRED FUCKING FLOORS BEING AN INCH TALL. Where as the BORG CUBE. ONly has two if that until later in the series. ITS MORE THAN FOUR FUCKING TIMES LARGER THAN DS9, AND HAS ONLY TWO FLOORS. Why is it every episode something goes wrong with the main warp drive or some stupid shit like that. WHY? Yea this is how geeks talk about relationships... Dont ask.
But to put it all into perspective. I know that I cant get Kelly to speed up and like me, it ist plausable. Its goin to take time, more so on her part. I just wish if she wasnt feeling me in that way, that she could tell me so I would get over my own feelings. And just be a friend to her. Know what I mean. As I was tellin J man last night. I was brough up to be an asshole, and trained myself to be someone with a heart. Soemone who anyone can talk too, without being judged. Maybe thats my downhill. Who knows. I dont. Heres lookin atchu im out.