Long Ago...
"Head my word withered lover , you'll never find anything like this again. So when you come crawling back legs bruised and battered you wont find me. So clean in the river and wash away the sin"
Hey,
God, i feel like everything is just crashing down on me. I was doing fine but my depressed state is slowly creeping up on me. And on top of that my mother is very anti-social right now because shes feeling ... lonley.
I feel like i'm on a staircase and i've climbed all of the stairs and ive reached the top and im just filled with such a joy and peaceful feeling its indescribable. Then i lose my balance and fall down all the stairs. And everything i was so proud about was just broken.
I'm so emotional right now. I mean i could cry on the spot. Like today Josh was being josh and he said i had something in my hair and he was like eww you have lice (Which i do not!!!) and he like went in bitch mode and was like eewwww! ( It was from all the hairspray i put in there) and my face got beat red and i just wanted to cry then yell at him for being an asshole.
God, i just feel like shit. Like I have no friends and nobody cares. But I know thats not true. I guess i just need to get out. Thats all i need i just need to be around good people. Like Hill. Jenni, and i don't church people or something.
Anyway thats enough of spilling out all my feelings. I'll try to write tomarrow.
-Lyss