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[morbid_adiction]

its been a while since i've written anything here, i've been on myspace for a while. alot has happend since may. i finished up my semester of school did so-so. i do enjoy taking auto but i always question it in the back of my mind. i also posted all my art i've done in the past 3-4 years. (not all is posted - gove it time though) so i do have an art-portfolio up. if you care to see it please IM me or email me for the link. on a completely different note i'm pretty much over guys at the moment - with the all the leading on and wasted talks about doing things and going no where with it. i mean when i see or hear these guys my heart skips a beat but i cant let it do anything more than that. i'm done for a while. i'm finally gunna focus on me. i dont care how selfish thats sounds but i need to find myself again. i cut of all my hair off... and soon the body mods will come once i get a little more cash. the 9 hours at work arent cutting it anymore. insurance is due in 2 months and i need about $160 and i'm set for 6 months. OH YEAH! i own two cars now cuz i'm a crazy bitch. i still got my little dodge thats so good to me but now i have a... god i get so giddy over nothing A CAMMARO. lol its only v6 and its 20 years old but its beautiful its in such great shape...exterior wise lol. so i have a summer and a winter car. i'm offically going back to concerts again. i've seen christophers band twice in like the last 20 days. i cannt believe how much of a sweetheart the kid is. he really does have a great heart and i'm glad that hes doing something he loves. i truely wish him the best. it was so nice hanging out with him after the show for a while this past wed in syracuse. it was worth driving up there seeing him. i cant wait till he comes home. alot of things in ym life are changing. i'm not sure if for the better or not yet but they seem to be. i cant be stressed out anymore no matter how hard i workout i'm not loosing anything and i'm starting to realize its the stress. hmm... what else... i;ve written poetry quite a bit since chew left, its weird something so cool has formed outta something kinda tragic. but i guess thats how shit just works in ym life...[[ ps i'm too tired to fix my errors - deal with it ]]
yeah i think i'm ending this entry. i'm fuckin beat even though i'll just sit up till the sun rises anyways...
-cait