An actual update on my life. :)
So, my weekend was awesome except for the being stood up by the sailor... I hung out with Marcus and Sean and people, hung out with an old friend that I never thought I would see again in that light... We had a LONG talk... Went to visit Claire at Oneonta, met someone I really liked, got to talk to Pete (who's gotten like... intense.) It was all pretty fucking cool.
Then I got sick, and yeah, okay fine... I know I have a lot of people I can call and I really need to just do it next time. Talking just for a minute when I'm sick with someone I know cares about me actually helps a lot, even if you feel like you aren't doing anything.
After being sick, I woke up early to be driven to the doctor by *gasp* my sister to get a shot in each arm, one of which being the one that makes my arm swell up and hurt like Hell. I then got to school and my one class and hung out A LOT. I was turned down flat out by someone but, quite frankly? I knew he was out of my league to begin with, so it doesn't bug me too much. I was just already depressed... He did it nicely though.
Wound up talking to Tweak a bunch. That was nice and comforting. Went to Gregg's... talked to Gregg's mom for TWO HOURS and sort of... patched things up a little more than I thought I would.
As for all that? I know I have no shot anymore. I'm very aware. That doesn't mean I don't want to make him happy and quite frankly, I'm content if I can just lay or sit by him for a while and feel like maybe he won't one day forget me or store me away in the ex-girlfriend box in his head forever.
It doesn't even hurt anymore.
Not a numbness.
It's a joy.
No risk of hurting him if I'm not really the one making him happy.
How'd we end up alone?
You've got someone at home
The one you'll love 'til you die
So do I
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
It's so easy to fall
I'll follow you down the hall
Staying strong is a fight
Though I try
Don't forget me
Don't forget what we could've had
Stand my ground
Though I wanna stay with you tonight
I'd sit back down
If you'd come around at other times
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
We could sneak underground
Speak, but don't make a sound
But I won't let her down
Down down down
Though you get me
Like no one gets me
Don't forget me
Don't forget what we could've had
Stand my ground
Though I wanna stay with you tonight
I'd sit back down
If you'd come around at other times
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
Won't forget the best thing I've never had
All I need is a holiday (All I need is a holiday)
From my vocation as a saint (From my vocation as a saint)
Hearts are beating fast; we're the same (In every way)
That is why I can't come back again
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
You've got everything I need
(You've got it but I cannot stay away)
This night will always be with me
Stand my ground
I'd sit back down
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing that I've had
Then I got sick, and yeah, okay fine... I know I have a lot of people I can call and I really need to just do it next time. Talking just for a minute when I'm sick with someone I know cares about me actually helps a lot, even if you feel like you aren't doing anything.
After being sick, I woke up early to be driven to the doctor by *gasp* my sister to get a shot in each arm, one of which being the one that makes my arm swell up and hurt like Hell. I then got to school and my one class and hung out A LOT. I was turned down flat out by someone but, quite frankly? I knew he was out of my league to begin with, so it doesn't bug me too much. I was just already depressed... He did it nicely though.
Wound up talking to Tweak a bunch. That was nice and comforting. Went to Gregg's... talked to Gregg's mom for TWO HOURS and sort of... patched things up a little more than I thought I would.
As for all that? I know I have no shot anymore. I'm very aware. That doesn't mean I don't want to make him happy and quite frankly, I'm content if I can just lay or sit by him for a while and feel like maybe he won't one day forget me or store me away in the ex-girlfriend box in his head forever.
It doesn't even hurt anymore.
Not a numbness.
It's a joy.
No risk of hurting him if I'm not really the one making him happy.
How'd we end up alone?
You've got someone at home
The one you'll love 'til you die
So do I
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
It's so easy to fall
I'll follow you down the hall
Staying strong is a fight
Though I try
Don't forget me
Don't forget what we could've had
Stand my ground
Though I wanna stay with you tonight
I'd sit back down
If you'd come around at other times
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
We could sneak underground
Speak, but don't make a sound
But I won't let her down
Down down down
Though you get me
Like no one gets me
Don't forget me
Don't forget what we could've had
Stand my ground
Though I wanna stay with you tonight
I'd sit back down
If you'd come around at other times
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
Won't forget the best thing I've never had
All I need is a holiday (All I need is a holiday)
From my vocation as a saint (From my vocation as a saint)
Hearts are beating fast; we're the same (In every way)
That is why I can't come back again
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
Don't forget me
You've got everything I need
(You've got it but I cannot stay away)
This night will always be with me
Stand my ground
I'd sit back down
I promise now
That I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing I've never had
I won't forget the best thing that I've had