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alyx turned six months yesterday...can you believe it. i know that i can't. she's gotten so big and can do so many new things. she can sit up by herself and can even stand by herself for a few seconds. she finds new ways to amaze me everyday. i got lucky with her.
brian and i have been talking lately about the idea of getting married. it's at least another two and a half years away before i want to say the "i do's." if we were to get engaged now, that would be fine, but i want to finish school and establish myself as a person before i commit myself to another person. i started to look at dresses online at david's bridal, and even went to go and try some of those on. it's going to be tough when it comes time to actually picking out a dress. all the ones that i had picked out to try on were just amazing. i had brian take pictures of me in those dresses, and when i look at them, i don't see someone who wants to get married. what i saw and felt in the mirrors, doesn't portray itself in the pictures. now i am wondering if i'm only fooling myself in to thinking that i want to be married. i have the problem where i want something that i can't have and once i get it, i don't want it anymore. i wonder if this is one of those things. only time will tell, i guess. and i do know that just because two people are involved in a long engagement doesn't mean that they'll have a long and happy marriage. the same can be said the other way around..just because people have a short engagement doesn't mean they'll have a long and happy marriage either. we shall see what the cards have in store for me.
brian and i have been talking lately about the idea of getting married. it's at least another two and a half years away before i want to say the "i do's." if we were to get engaged now, that would be fine, but i want to finish school and establish myself as a person before i commit myself to another person. i started to look at dresses online at david's bridal, and even went to go and try some of those on. it's going to be tough when it comes time to actually picking out a dress. all the ones that i had picked out to try on were just amazing. i had brian take pictures of me in those dresses, and when i look at them, i don't see someone who wants to get married. what i saw and felt in the mirrors, doesn't portray itself in the pictures. now i am wondering if i'm only fooling myself in to thinking that i want to be married. i have the problem where i want something that i can't have and once i get it, i don't want it anymore. i wonder if this is one of those things. only time will tell, i guess. and i do know that just because two people are involved in a long engagement doesn't mean that they'll have a long and happy marriage. the same can be said the other way around..just because people have a short engagement doesn't mean they'll have a long and happy marriage either. we shall see what the cards have in store for me.