Torn
I have 15 days left to get my affairs in order and move on to the next phase of my life. I'm intimidated by a once best friend who I need to talk to and I have a shrink appt. Monday at 12 which I wanted to have my life in order for her. But, alas, I'm moving in a different direction right now, but it's not forwards or backwards, it's more of a side-to-side thing because I'm learning one of life's lessons and experiencing who I am. I've realized that I'm very close to being 18 and I have yet to have been in a relationship, mostly because I've been trying to stay out of one, but also, I have not found that someone to love me back, well, that's where my new path leads me. I'm off on a journey.
If you are reading this and you are the above mentinoed friend, please come talk to me. It is very hard to talk to you.
Now I'm crying and it hurts really bad. I just wanna move on and forget the last 12 years of my life; I've already blocked out 5. Please let me finally have peace with this last issue. Maybe then I can go a night without wanting to never wake up again.
...Please...
If you are reading this and you are the above mentinoed friend, please come talk to me. It is very hard to talk to you.
Now I'm crying and it hurts really bad. I just wanna move on and forget the last 12 years of my life; I've already blocked out 5. Please let me finally have peace with this last issue. Maybe then I can go a night without wanting to never wake up again.
...Please...