Feb 22, 2009 17:32
I'm not one for really putting my problems into the public. I'm barely one to talk about myself personally to many people. But why hide who I am, what is going? We can learn so much from each other by sharing our troubles, our stories, our experiences.
I wrote this sitting in my car this afternoon. Inspiration and thoughts straight out of left field.
Why is it we do what we do? why do we get caught up so easily in the routine? What gives us purpose?
The main question, why do we do what we do? Photography for me, is a way to socialize with people. A way to capture a moment, a way to freeze a memory or create a picture.
People are most amazing in their natural habits, going on about their daily life. Posing, smiling, and wearing fashion is nice but one emotion could easily be told by a photo.
I want recognition. As selfish as it sounds I want to be known, I want to be wanted and needed. I want my photos to speak to people, to sometimes give a message or at other times just make you stop and look.
I want to make people in my photos feel better, see themselves in a new light. See what isn't normally seen.
But photography won't easily pay the bills. It won't easily provide for my loved ones. Nor is it sometimes something I see myself getting into. So many others out there are better, so many are so far ahead.
I should in turn be asking what is it that makes them better, how can I get there? How can I get a step ahead? I hold myself back with my fears, my insecurities. I hold myself back with routine, retail jobs, day to day mundane life. I hold myself back because I promised to provide for someone.
So what do you do in this spot? What do you do when you feel like you aren't good enough, like you aren't needed? I hear you keep at it. You shut your eyes, turn up the music and dance like no one is watching you.