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I can't, anymore.
Killing myself won't solve any problems, it's nothing but a selfish act.
Divorcing him won't solve the problems either.
Finding a decent job like he tells me to do... might solve some of it. But then again - finding one seems like an impossible barrier. I never make it past the first interview.
I love translating, but I barely make some NIS 2000 a month (about 400 Euros).
We have many quarrels, my husband treats me like a stupid child. He treats everyone like a stupid child. And he is being a tyrant about every Sheqel I spend. I started referring the children to him if they tell me they need new shoes or clothes. My shirts are actually full of little holes, and I'm not buying new ones, partly because my size is too big for ordinary shops and too small for large size ones, and partly because he yells at every purchase I make. I've become invisible, no one. Living and hiding at home and living only for my children. Though I'm aware this situation is hurting them as well.
How can I even start with web design when even my husband doesn't believe in me? How can I start a business when he keeps telling me that it's too big on me, to go find a job?
And I didn't even mention Tomer, and toll it takes physically on my body taking care of him.
The hell with him, I have work to do, and I can't concentrate with the last quarrel so I'm writing this.
Killing myself won't solve any problems, it's nothing but a selfish act.
Divorcing him won't solve the problems either.
Finding a decent job like he tells me to do... might solve some of it. But then again - finding one seems like an impossible barrier. I never make it past the first interview.
I love translating, but I barely make some NIS 2000 a month (about 400 Euros).
We have many quarrels, my husband treats me like a stupid child. He treats everyone like a stupid child. And he is being a tyrant about every Sheqel I spend. I started referring the children to him if they tell me they need new shoes or clothes. My shirts are actually full of little holes, and I'm not buying new ones, partly because my size is too big for ordinary shops and too small for large size ones, and partly because he yells at every purchase I make. I've become invisible, no one. Living and hiding at home and living only for my children. Though I'm aware this situation is hurting them as well.
How can I even start with web design when even my husband doesn't believe in me? How can I start a business when he keeps telling me that it's too big on me, to go find a job?
And I didn't even mention Tomer, and toll it takes physically on my body taking care of him.
The hell with him, I have work to do, and I can't concentrate with the last quarrel so I'm writing this.