choices are made everyday
people keep asking me what my new year's resolution is as if the slate has been wiped clean and i'm allowed to start anew. i still feel what i felt the week before as do i know now what i've known my whole life gained by experience. i take chances when applicable, and make choices based upon my rationale surrounding the situation. each day is a new day, and though i admire the populi wanting the beginning of a year to be a birth, i still see life and adhere to it closely. i have no resolution other than to improve and diversify myself. just when you thought i was tedious, you didn't get my phone call. just when i thought i was tedious, i got over it and pushed even harder.
when you play a song and everything about it sucks, you can either start over again or forge on through. ever since i picked up playing, i kept playing until the others came back in or a new direction was found. it wears on stamina, that is true, but there is always something different to be found when playing with others. soon you forget your body and its limitations and find what you are capable of in your surroundings. you never know your potential unless you push yourself beyond anything you've done before. i may play that song slowly, but i play it well.
i was telling gerard that this is the first time in my life where i've felt comfortable not knowing but being aware of the greater picture. trying to attack the big question in life is like attacking a bear with a pez dispenser. over time the bear will recognize you, and somewhere down the trail you can feed it. it may even befriend you. have to be patient, and i don't think i've ever been that until now.
don't get me wrong, i'm still the same ol' neurotic ryan wanting to be obnoxious and over the top, looking for a good time, a good friend, and a good woman.
this time is different, though. i am an adult, now, to a greater or lesser degree. i am a man without a shadow of a doubt.
it didn't take a new calendar to figure that one out, but it did take many years.
as for a new beginning, though? i have just a few people left to tell what i feel about them, and when the time is right, i will.
cheers to us, broken kids, and may we make amends before the tides seperate us again. we're far from shore, but there's no other place i'd rather be then out here with all of you.
when you play a song and everything about it sucks, you can either start over again or forge on through. ever since i picked up playing, i kept playing until the others came back in or a new direction was found. it wears on stamina, that is true, but there is always something different to be found when playing with others. soon you forget your body and its limitations and find what you are capable of in your surroundings. you never know your potential unless you push yourself beyond anything you've done before. i may play that song slowly, but i play it well.
i was telling gerard that this is the first time in my life where i've felt comfortable not knowing but being aware of the greater picture. trying to attack the big question in life is like attacking a bear with a pez dispenser. over time the bear will recognize you, and somewhere down the trail you can feed it. it may even befriend you. have to be patient, and i don't think i've ever been that until now.
don't get me wrong, i'm still the same ol' neurotic ryan wanting to be obnoxious and over the top, looking for a good time, a good friend, and a good woman.
this time is different, though. i am an adult, now, to a greater or lesser degree. i am a man without a shadow of a doubt.
it didn't take a new calendar to figure that one out, but it did take many years.
as for a new beginning, though? i have just a few people left to tell what i feel about them, and when the time is right, i will.
cheers to us, broken kids, and may we make amends before the tides seperate us again. we're far from shore, but there's no other place i'd rather be then out here with all of you.