the new world
i am living beyond my means and not up to my potential. it feels as though i am interred under my own idealism and procrastination- that which i cannot break free from. those who know and support me have grown frustrated with this intermittently but realize it is a constant struggle not unlike anyone else. we all have our own personal strife to overcome or battle with. do i marry? why do i fear autonomy? how does direction differ from lifelong influence?
my birthday was absolutely outstanding, for it was kept low-key and with those (most of them, anyhow) closest to me. people at work embraced me, steak and gin with the family, and clerks 2 followed by drinking games to beavis and butthead. the rest of the week has sent me into a slight depression due to overbearing circumstances of responsibility and obligation.
i have to add that i am blessed with those i am with and continue to be with. short talks with good friends, movie nights with yale, and vicky driving out to hold me because i'm scared.
i'm happy to be alive. sometimes i just don't know where to begin.
my birthday was absolutely outstanding, for it was kept low-key and with those (most of them, anyhow) closest to me. people at work embraced me, steak and gin with the family, and clerks 2 followed by drinking games to beavis and butthead. the rest of the week has sent me into a slight depression due to overbearing circumstances of responsibility and obligation.
i have to add that i am blessed with those i am with and continue to be with. short talks with good friends, movie nights with yale, and vicky driving out to hold me because i'm scared.
i'm happy to be alive. sometimes i just don't know where to begin.