Run. Run away, Run Far from the World....
This is what literally happens between me and my mind..yes the inner conflict I have with myself...be scared...or not.
Amazingly I really should write in this damn thing more often. But hey, I'm me, can't change the fact that I hate opening up to people...that amazes me, why write this if i hate opening up to people and why be so loud? -___-" This is going to be one very interesting journal entry... pity falls upon you all...
Where do i start? It'll come to me eventually, like writing an essay but one difference....essays suck... fuck. School soon, well I am keeping myself busy with the greatest thing on this planet...downloading. ah~ yes stalking the sexy koreans and planning a fanfic which will most likely never be written unless I boot my arse from sleeping in and cleaning 24/7 and actually doing something about it. But no that's just how I am...very lazy...
This is really getting no where....
I must vent...no, not for the sake that I like you, I just need to let a bunch of random fuckwitts know my life story and the random emo pain i feel oh sad sad day...no you moron -__-" no not on your life...emo is dead bwahah, I'm quite happy with my pop, rock and heavy metal music....oh yeah...and dance...
Why do they keep fighting? honestly, I know mum is stressed and dad is being like extra annoying lately but why must they bicker and carry on in front of me and my sisters? Why do i always feel like I'm about to fucking cry when they yell at eachother I hate this. Divorce? no way, never. Not in a million years...maybe...who knows...fuck it..I can hear the yelling now...it hurts...usually when I try and get a hug from mum she just thinks I'm depressed, maybe thats why I dont hug anyone anymore..only earning me to be hug deprived...sad child I am. Loui gives good hugs, I'll just bombard her on the first day back at school....There is so much to cry about and only such a short time...It's nearly over and they are gonna leave soon...horrible isn't it...Lifes' a bitch and the only way we are going to survive is if we have big tubs of icecream and chocolate, but dont forget those random buckets to throw up in, have to keep ourselves looking beautiful dont we *rolls eyes* morons.
I manage to use everything as something else. My theory for the blood system in science is compared to the girls at their lockers in the middle of a period change. It's so fitting to think about. Life however, just strangles you. You are a cocroah caught in the spiders web form the moment you are born and you have no escape...Life being the spider will eat you and then you will be gone...It's only a matter of time before the spider strikes...keep struggling little cocroah...
Have you ever felt like you wanted to escape? No not suicide...yet. To travel, try and experience new shit...No, not a new and different drug only found in the most tropical part of the world where you just have to go to get the most awesome high...Life...Experience a new life, to just get away from everything and try living it out somewhere else, wish I could just do that. It'd be great...but no, im stuck here in my little life as a barely passing school student...maybe thats why I want to do tourism...Just to get out of it all...pfft
Well I think i wasted enough of your time...If you actually made it this far...I award you...With hugs...Hugs are nice.
Amazingly I really should write in this damn thing more often. But hey, I'm me, can't change the fact that I hate opening up to people...that amazes me, why write this if i hate opening up to people and why be so loud? -___-" This is going to be one very interesting journal entry... pity falls upon you all...
Where do i start? It'll come to me eventually, like writing an essay but one difference....essays suck... fuck. School soon, well I am keeping myself busy with the greatest thing on this planet...downloading. ah~ yes stalking the sexy koreans and planning a fanfic which will most likely never be written unless I boot my arse from sleeping in and cleaning 24/7 and actually doing something about it. But no that's just how I am...very lazy...
This is really getting no where....
I must vent...no, not for the sake that I like you, I just need to let a bunch of random fuckwitts know my life story and the random emo pain i feel oh sad sad day...no you moron -__-" no not on your life...emo is dead bwahah, I'm quite happy with my pop, rock and heavy metal music....oh yeah...and dance...
Why do they keep fighting? honestly, I know mum is stressed and dad is being like extra annoying lately but why must they bicker and carry on in front of me and my sisters? Why do i always feel like I'm about to fucking cry when they yell at eachother I hate this. Divorce? no way, never. Not in a million years...maybe...who knows...fuck it..I can hear the yelling now...it hurts...usually when I try and get a hug from mum she just thinks I'm depressed, maybe thats why I dont hug anyone anymore..only earning me to be hug deprived...sad child I am. Loui gives good hugs, I'll just bombard her on the first day back at school....There is so much to cry about and only such a short time...It's nearly over and they are gonna leave soon...horrible isn't it...Lifes' a bitch and the only way we are going to survive is if we have big tubs of icecream and chocolate, but dont forget those random buckets to throw up in, have to keep ourselves looking beautiful dont we *rolls eyes* morons.
I manage to use everything as something else. My theory for the blood system in science is compared to the girls at their lockers in the middle of a period change. It's so fitting to think about. Life however, just strangles you. You are a cocroah caught in the spiders web form the moment you are born and you have no escape...Life being the spider will eat you and then you will be gone...It's only a matter of time before the spider strikes...keep struggling little cocroah...
Have you ever felt like you wanted to escape? No not suicide...yet. To travel, try and experience new shit...No, not a new and different drug only found in the most tropical part of the world where you just have to go to get the most awesome high...Life...Experience a new life, to just get away from everything and try living it out somewhere else, wish I could just do that. It'd be great...but no, im stuck here in my little life as a barely passing school student...maybe thats why I want to do tourism...Just to get out of it all...pfft
Well I think i wasted enough of your time...If you actually made it this far...I award you...With hugs...Hugs are nice.