i don't know
there are some things that need to change in my life to make it better, more meaningful. its hard to make the change. i am trying.
I want my weekends to be mine. if my students are going to be put first Monday to Friday then Saturday and Sunday should be for me. It worked really well two weekends ago. it rocked. last weekend not so much and this weekend not so much either.
Today, well, yesterday now is a month until my last day in my classroom with my students, my first class. After June 10th, they won't be my students anymore (okay, they always will be mine and always my first class but go with me). After June 10th, they will leave and move onto to the rest of their school lives and in 2021 (in September I was told the kindergarteners who started then will graduate in 2020) weird huh.
totally lost my train of thought. i went and googled myself for some reason. the first one that was actually me came up on the 3rd page and that was my Podquiz guest quizmaster. yay. then on the 4th page was the staff listing for my school. haven't done that in a while.
I guess my point is the have about a month, okay really more. my last day via my contract isn't until the 18th but after the 10th, my main job is basically done. my first year bamn. done, gone. i've survived. sometimes it feels like i survived just barely and part of me wonders if i have done any good (those are the low times).
Then i have an open summer. I am going to work on moving out I had planned to do it before now. but I have been so busy. it almost feels like things have just finally calmed down in a way, the end of the year stuff is about to start. you know what i really need? i need just a day to do nothing but plan and get ready for this final month. i need a snow day dang it. memorial day is coming but that might be too late.
my assistant and i got into a big fight on Thursday. Some things she was right about, I haven't been the best at communicating some stuff with her but she also hasn't communicated with me. She isn't always there and some things that I was planning on waiting till the end of the school year to get out. I think it helped us a lot. I didn't get too mad, i didn't cry, i almost did. she did at the end. i forget how stressful her life must be sometimes. umm. i don't know. i am stuck.
Things to do - (last time i posted something to do, i did it so maybe i can start to work on these)
find an apartment
prepare for the end of the school year
find someone professional to talk to about my issues
make some friends that i can go to dinner with and movies with and go out and dance/party with (not that my internet friends aren't the best)
I want my weekends to be mine. if my students are going to be put first Monday to Friday then Saturday and Sunday should be for me. It worked really well two weekends ago. it rocked. last weekend not so much and this weekend not so much either.
Today, well, yesterday now is a month until my last day in my classroom with my students, my first class. After June 10th, they won't be my students anymore (okay, they always will be mine and always my first class but go with me). After June 10th, they will leave and move onto to the rest of their school lives and in 2021 (in September I was told the kindergarteners who started then will graduate in 2020) weird huh.
totally lost my train of thought. i went and googled myself for some reason. the first one that was actually me came up on the 3rd page and that was my Podquiz guest quizmaster. yay. then on the 4th page was the staff listing for my school. haven't done that in a while.
I guess my point is the have about a month, okay really more. my last day via my contract isn't until the 18th but after the 10th, my main job is basically done. my first year bamn. done, gone. i've survived. sometimes it feels like i survived just barely and part of me wonders if i have done any good (those are the low times).
Then i have an open summer. I am going to work on moving out I had planned to do it before now. but I have been so busy. it almost feels like things have just finally calmed down in a way, the end of the year stuff is about to start. you know what i really need? i need just a day to do nothing but plan and get ready for this final month. i need a snow day dang it. memorial day is coming but that might be too late.
my assistant and i got into a big fight on Thursday. Some things she was right about, I haven't been the best at communicating some stuff with her but she also hasn't communicated with me. She isn't always there and some things that I was planning on waiting till the end of the school year to get out. I think it helped us a lot. I didn't get too mad, i didn't cry, i almost did. she did at the end. i forget how stressful her life must be sometimes. umm. i don't know. i am stuck.
Things to do - (last time i posted something to do, i did it so maybe i can start to work on these)
find an apartment
prepare for the end of the school year
find someone professional to talk to about my issues
make some friends that i can go to dinner with and movies with and go out and dance/party with (not that my internet friends aren't the best)