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i have just finally accepted the fact that i never really have time or the energy to write in this anymore...so i wont promise to write as often as i used to...cause we all know that wont happen..but i will write in it every so often. im just one of those people who when you dont do something for a while...i dont know how to get back in, so i keep putting it off. oh well...im here now.
stacie visited this weekend. it was so great to see her again. i just love how no matter how long we are apart we can just go right back to having fun like we always do...granted there wasnt THAT much to do all weekend, but even just hanging out is always a plus. standing outside in the freezing cold while getting rained on wasnt exactly how i wouldve liked to have spent the weekend, but when you have responsibilites, you just gotta suck it up sometimes. it was fun though. fun watching nicole be incredibley silly for much of the time. thats always entertaining.
summer is almost here...i am STILL thinking of it as though the summer is going to be only 2 months like back in high school...im gonna be home for like 3 and a half months...i cant decide if thats a good thing or a bad thing. im gonna miss my friends here, thats a given. i HAVE to get a job this summer, theres no question there. im doing hurricanes which is gonna take up a HUGE chunk of my time. and any left over time will be spent either with friends or with matt. thats the one real thing im looking foward to, is seeing matt practically all the time. ive missed those days. and going to see him play baseball again....i dont know with my schedule how many games ill actually make, but it better be at least a few, of course preferably more.
i know itlll be a little hard managing time to see him...but im not all that worried about it...anytime is better than no time.
im starting to get more and more worried about hurricanes...i mean, i wasnt really worried about the comittment. i know its gonna be extremely time consuming, but im not thrilled about the fact that AFTER i pay my non refundable deposit, i find out that half of the show is going to be weapon only. im not saying i wont try it out...but lets face it, i was only on weapon for one season, i could barely handle 4s on my rifle (i know i can toss a 5 cause ive done it before...but that was during mid season of senior year....i havent picked up ANY equipment and really spun for more than a year now...how am i gonna handle weapon?)...it would be different if it were like high school marching...but this is hurcs...there are going to be people there who ive idolized watching...marching right next to me! thats really intimidating if you ask me.
and if i cant handle the weapon, then i think ill only be in half of the show...and i dont want to go through all the comittment, pay the huge fee, if im only in half of the show...
le sigh...ill just have to see how it goes. =/ .
umm...i think thats it for now i guess....perhaps if i think of something later i may add it...
prob not though knowing me lol.
in the words of the best roomate in the world: "peace out cub scouts"