Bottleneck
I feel like I have so much to say... but I don't even know how to say it. And I don't know who to say it to.
There's someone I'm excited about, but every other time I've been excited about someone it has fallen apart so I'm trying not to be excited at all. It causes me to feel a little depressed, a little lump in my throat. When I have a bad day, I'd like to see him. When I do see him for the next few days I feel super lonely. And I don't know what we're doing... are we just friends, is there room for more? What does he think? My considerations verge on the edge of relationship to friend... no real want/need to find out what he's like in bed. What does that say?
And 90% of the time I'm sure that I'll just be single my whole life.
The film fest is coming up and I'm going to most of the films alone. Adrienne is going to a few and Linda is going to a couple which is nice but I think I'm seeing something like 12 by myself. I might as well move far away and just do everything by myself.
There's someone I'm excited about, but every other time I've been excited about someone it has fallen apart so I'm trying not to be excited at all. It causes me to feel a little depressed, a little lump in my throat. When I have a bad day, I'd like to see him. When I do see him for the next few days I feel super lonely. And I don't know what we're doing... are we just friends, is there room for more? What does he think? My considerations verge on the edge of relationship to friend... no real want/need to find out what he's like in bed. What does that say?
And 90% of the time I'm sure that I'll just be single my whole life.
The film fest is coming up and I'm going to most of the films alone. Adrienne is going to a few and Linda is going to a couple which is nice but I think I'm seeing something like 12 by myself. I might as well move far away and just do everything by myself.