Oct 13, 2004 21:34
i really am stupid. i never doubted my intelligence until this day. i mean, i always knew that i sucked ass at folllowing direction, but i thought i had gotten better at that since elementary school wen my teacher would hold up my homework and show the class how i did something stupid like use the wrong workbook or something, but apparently i my add doesnt go away wen i take pills.
yes........life sucks life a milf (i dunno, i like the word milf- its wat i wanna be in life). so about 2 weeks ago, i paid 20 dollars in signing up for the psat. i was proud of my purchase. this pre test result is an indicatoor for what i need to work on to prepare for the sats. so today, i go to school and i get assigned to f10 with jono, jesse, and jessica (wow-all of their first names start with j and their last names start with o). the teacher was this psycho lady who was always trying to be funny and impress us- didnt work. she had no idea wat was going on and would try to tell a joke and make us laugh, and wen we didnt she would blame it on the fact that we had no humor. i dont see how "wouldnt it be cool if there was such thing a sleeping jacks, instead of cracker jacks?" is funny. its only funny wen u look at how much this woman wants to be funny. anyways......back to the story........so i take the first 3 sections of the psat and i think i did really good in the 1st math section (but im not tooo sure that i did good in the reading comprehension due to my tendency to read the same sentence 10 times while thinking about things like how my foot itches and then i get into philosophy bullshit about whether i know my itch is real and what defines reality anyway- i always forget that the test is timed.) so anyhow......im feeling pretty good and then we get to the 2nd math section and finish it within 10 minutes. im the first one done and this surprises me because im usually the last one hurrying to finish. so i just figure that im a math genius and i just happen to be better and smarter than everyone else. then the teacher says, "ok ten more minutes" am i am like "ok cool this was so easy". then i start thinking about how colleges will love me and ill do really well on the sats and i start drawing pictures of myself being prettier and smarter than the rest of the world (i do that a lot- its a "learn to love urself" excercise i made up). so there i am, drawing pictures, staring at all the losers who are working so hard at something so easy when the teacher says "ok one more minute." im thinking "excellent the sooner were done, the sooner i can brag about my sheer genius." then i happen to look at the bottom of the page and it says........"turn the page." i turned the page.........lets just say that's 20 bucks down the drain. i didnt even do half of the fucking problems. wow....i suck at life.
ok im too emotionally distressed to write anymore. ill talk about my dads side of the family next time.