STUPID ACADS. THEY FILL ME WITH RAGE.

[mootrannycow2]

Stupid acads. My sister just found the piano book, no, THE piano book, with THE piece that i've been obsessing about trying to learn these past few days. It's a new piece, not an old piece i wanna relearn or a piece i'm currently trying to learn. The problem is, i never knew we had this book. Apparently it's been lurking in the piano shelves amongst the books all this time. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. And i can't even tinker around with the damn thing today coz of fucking acads. GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH rage fills my soul. A cold, calculating rage. i can't even try the piece out after i'm done with this thesis bullshit. You know why? Coz i have to study economics and differential equations after this. Fuck. Then do AI programming. i thought i'd like this subject, coz for once it's a challenge to my programming skill. The thing is, like i said, i've burned out all my enthusiasm for programming already. So fuck. i don't hate the subject but it fills me with lazy despair.

FUCK PEOPLE I LEND MY THINGS TO. i lent my blockmate, a thesis groupmate (but not an electronics groupmate) my main 4 gig usb last last week. She hasn't returned it up to now, and it seems she isn't even fucking TRYING to find it to give it back to me. What the FUCK?! My secondary 2 gig usb is with Erin. And i lost a nice pair of pliers in microprocessors1 last term. FUCK FUCK FUCK. i'd ask Erin for my 2 gig usb back, so i can have a usb at least while my main one is missing, but i think Erin lost it. i'm drowning in fucking rage. i NEED a fucking usb, so i can have stuff printed at school.

i know i'm procrastinating with my schoolwork again but i'm so angry that it's making my head hurt. The frustration of losing important tools combined with me not getting to learn what i WANT to fucking learn.

If i had 20k, i'd buy combat boots, a jigsaw and an arc welding machine. More to follow, as i forgot the rest of my 20k wish list hahaha.