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M: hey
i wasn't trying to mock you on here
Melinda had been showing us some of her Zumba moves in sai and that;s why i was laughing at her after our walk home
so sorry if you took it the wrong way
C: hey
sorry i was on the phone with my mom
M: no worries
C: yeah when i was saw that i was like what the heck?
M: i think she was just trying to be funny
but what's been going on this semester in general?
i don't get it
C: i just dont feel like i can trust you
M: so you show up at horn studio parties and talk about and point at me with your roommates in the kitchen and stuff like that?
i'm sorry if you feel that way, but i haven't given you any reason not to
i'm not interfering with you and drew
i texted him this summer saying how happy i was that things were working out with you guys when he said you guys were starting to hang out again
you can ask him about that
C: first of all i didnt point at you. second of all the reason the why i distrust you is beacause of last year how sneaky you were
i looked up to you and went to you seeking advice
M: i wasn't being sneaky! and i never told you any advice that was bad
everything last semester was a big cf with neither of us knowing what was actually going on with him
because he was keeping things secret
C: and you just stabbed me in the back
and didnt have the decency to be upfront and honest with me
M: not secret...just not telling full stories
C: it doesnt matter what kind of advice it was, i went to YOU because i liked being able to talk to you
well when i confronted you about it you couldnt even be honest with me
M: because he didn't want me to tell anyone anything
and for some dumb reason i listened to that
so you're right there
and i truly am sorry about that
if i had last semester to do over with all of this, trust me i would
but unfortunately that's not an option
C: well you could have stopped it from happening
i wouldnt do that to someone i call a friend
i looked up to you so much
M: i know, you told me you did
and i did try stopping things and then he would say that things were completely over with you guys and that it was ok or something like that
and since i liked him, i was stupid and fell for him or whatever
you're right that i shouldn't have done that
but i can't undo the fact that i did
C: it has nothing to do with drew and you its just the overall fact that i trusted you
it makes me so sad
imagine if this had happened with me and eric...how would you feel?
M: well, it kinda did
i mean he started dating someone right away
and it hurt a lot for a whie
but i'm genuinely happy for him
he still won't talk to me and all that jazz
but like yesterday would have been our 3yrs
and i jsut sent him a text saying that the date made me feel nostaligic but that i was really glad he was happy and doing well with his life
C: well imagine if i was sleeping with him behind your back while you guys were still doing stuff
M: that's not how it happened though! he told me you guys weren't doing stuff!
i remember when i found out that you guys were was at a party at kinna's place or somewhere there in mckay d building
and i couldn't believe it
C: but i would talk to you about it and how we still were?
M: i felt completely stupid for falling for that shit
right and i cooled it after i found out
and then things didn't start liek that again until he said that you guys were completely done
C: yeah completely done after i found out the 2 of you had sex
i kicked him out of my life
M: right
C: i hated the person drew was last semester
and ill admit a lot of it was my fault too, but still
M: i don't think there's anything i'm going to say now that's going to make you feel differently about me, but i don't think that's really my intention
i'm just sorry about how things turned out and that we can't even seem to be civil to each other
i am happy for you and drew and i told him flat out that i'm not wanting to interfere
if you guys are happy, i'm happy for you
C: well i appreciate that but havent we been civil towards each other by not acknowledging each other?
i hope someday you can earn my trust back
M: i don't call that being civil necessarily
C: well yeah
M: i think that's just tolerating someone's existence...either way, they both suck
C: yeah i agree and you know i hate drama
but if you really cared about me and or our friendship why couldnt you come say hi to me this weekend?
M: when?
C: friday at bww
or saturday at campus coffee bean?
M: because i felt like i was getting glared down
and that's a shitty feeling
so why would i want to associate myself with that?
C: then why are we even having this conversation?
M: because i didn't entirely understand what was going on
now i do
and whether or not that changes things, i guess we'll see
but at least i'm getting some of the things off my chest
and out in the open
C: anything else you need to say to me?
M: i guess not
should there be?
C: no i guess not
im glad we talked though, i think it needed to be done
M: k well, i am sorry and maybe this will all get straightened out at some point
haha exactly
C: hopefully
because i do miss you megan
things take time though
M: yup
thanks for listening though
C: of course
M: and i agree, it's probably a good thing that we talked at least a little
C: for sure
i wasn't trying to mock you on here
Melinda had been showing us some of her Zumba moves in sai and that;s why i was laughing at her after our walk home
so sorry if you took it the wrong way
C: hey
sorry i was on the phone with my mom
M: no worries
C: yeah when i was saw that i was like what the heck?
M: i think she was just trying to be funny
but what's been going on this semester in general?
i don't get it
C: i just dont feel like i can trust you
M: so you show up at horn studio parties and talk about and point at me with your roommates in the kitchen and stuff like that?
i'm sorry if you feel that way, but i haven't given you any reason not to
i'm not interfering with you and drew
i texted him this summer saying how happy i was that things were working out with you guys when he said you guys were starting to hang out again
you can ask him about that
C: first of all i didnt point at you. second of all the reason the why i distrust you is beacause of last year how sneaky you were
i looked up to you and went to you seeking advice
M: i wasn't being sneaky! and i never told you any advice that was bad
everything last semester was a big cf with neither of us knowing what was actually going on with him
because he was keeping things secret
C: and you just stabbed me in the back
and didnt have the decency to be upfront and honest with me
M: not secret...just not telling full stories
C: it doesnt matter what kind of advice it was, i went to YOU because i liked being able to talk to you
well when i confronted you about it you couldnt even be honest with me
M: because he didn't want me to tell anyone anything
and for some dumb reason i listened to that
so you're right there
and i truly am sorry about that
if i had last semester to do over with all of this, trust me i would
but unfortunately that's not an option
C: well you could have stopped it from happening
i wouldnt do that to someone i call a friend
i looked up to you so much
M: i know, you told me you did
and i did try stopping things and then he would say that things were completely over with you guys and that it was ok or something like that
and since i liked him, i was stupid and fell for him or whatever
you're right that i shouldn't have done that
but i can't undo the fact that i did
C: it has nothing to do with drew and you its just the overall fact that i trusted you
it makes me so sad
imagine if this had happened with me and eric...how would you feel?
M: well, it kinda did
i mean he started dating someone right away
and it hurt a lot for a whie
but i'm genuinely happy for him
he still won't talk to me and all that jazz
but like yesterday would have been our 3yrs
and i jsut sent him a text saying that the date made me feel nostaligic but that i was really glad he was happy and doing well with his life
C: well imagine if i was sleeping with him behind your back while you guys were still doing stuff
M: that's not how it happened though! he told me you guys weren't doing stuff!
i remember when i found out that you guys were was at a party at kinna's place or somewhere there in mckay d building
and i couldn't believe it
C: but i would talk to you about it and how we still were?
M: i felt completely stupid for falling for that shit
right and i cooled it after i found out
and then things didn't start liek that again until he said that you guys were completely done
C: yeah completely done after i found out the 2 of you had sex
i kicked him out of my life
M: right
C: i hated the person drew was last semester
and ill admit a lot of it was my fault too, but still
M: i don't think there's anything i'm going to say now that's going to make you feel differently about me, but i don't think that's really my intention
i'm just sorry about how things turned out and that we can't even seem to be civil to each other
i am happy for you and drew and i told him flat out that i'm not wanting to interfere
if you guys are happy, i'm happy for you
C: well i appreciate that but havent we been civil towards each other by not acknowledging each other?
i hope someday you can earn my trust back
M: i don't call that being civil necessarily
C: well yeah
M: i think that's just tolerating someone's existence...either way, they both suck
C: yeah i agree and you know i hate drama
but if you really cared about me and or our friendship why couldnt you come say hi to me this weekend?
M: when?
C: friday at bww
or saturday at campus coffee bean?
M: because i felt like i was getting glared down
and that's a shitty feeling
so why would i want to associate myself with that?
C: then why are we even having this conversation?
M: because i didn't entirely understand what was going on
now i do
and whether or not that changes things, i guess we'll see
but at least i'm getting some of the things off my chest
and out in the open
C: anything else you need to say to me?
M: i guess not
should there be?
C: no i guess not
im glad we talked though, i think it needed to be done
M: k well, i am sorry and maybe this will all get straightened out at some point
haha exactly
C: hopefully
because i do miss you megan
things take time though
M: yup
thanks for listening though
C: of course
M: and i agree, it's probably a good thing that we talked at least a little
C: for sure