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Wow...I just read my last entry from over half a year ago and started crying all over again because this is exactly what I was thinking about when I was walking around the school by myself. I slipped once and landed pretty hard, but the only thing I could think about was how irrevocably, undeniably, unconditionally in love I am with someone I can't have anymore. I am not ready to give up fighting though, mostly because I am not completely convinced it's over.
When you have been through so many ups and downs with a person, but always able to work through problems, I think that just makes the relationship stronger. I know I messed up this time, but I would wish that you would realize how unlike me that really is. If you really knew me, you would understand that I made a mistake and I am punishing myself just as much as you are, but I don't think that we should give up on everything we have been working towards these past 2 1/4 years.
I know you are probably wondering if you could ever trust me again, and I know this might take some work. I really would like to see a counselor though to fix this. We love each other so much, even though I hurt you, and I think that could help us get through this. Please don't give up yet. I know I am not.
Wow, I didn't mean for this to turn into a directed letter at all. I just really want to talk to him and I am not allowed at all. How long am I supposed to wait before I can say something when I can't think about a single thing other than what I want to say or wonder how he is doing.
I think that's just how love works in these situations...
When you have been through so many ups and downs with a person, but always able to work through problems, I think that just makes the relationship stronger. I know I messed up this time, but I would wish that you would realize how unlike me that really is. If you really knew me, you would understand that I made a mistake and I am punishing myself just as much as you are, but I don't think that we should give up on everything we have been working towards these past 2 1/4 years.
I know you are probably wondering if you could ever trust me again, and I know this might take some work. I really would like to see a counselor though to fix this. We love each other so much, even though I hurt you, and I think that could help us get through this. Please don't give up yet. I know I am not.
Wow, I didn't mean for this to turn into a directed letter at all. I just really want to talk to him and I am not allowed at all. How long am I supposed to wait before I can say something when I can't think about a single thing other than what I want to say or wonder how he is doing.
I think that's just how love works in these situations...