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I don't much remember HOW to journal. It's been so long since I've done so. I do the frequent FB updates thing, but that requires little to no thought.
Today I made an appointment to meet with a new team lead at a new office of Keller Williams. She wants me to discuss going commercial instead of residential. I am hoping this works out. I hate waitressing, but I do love the money. I want my life back. I very much enjoyed commercial real estate, even if it stressed me the fuck out. If I do with in tandem with waiting tables, I'll have a solid income and the ability to not stress out when a payment is late. Also, Keller Williams is a multi billion dollar company, so I doubt it will be as hard to get paid from them.
I don't know. I know something has to give. I'm unhappy with my life right now and I feel out of control of it. I need some sort of control back. I can get this with Real Estate.
I was about to type a story of my trip to CVS yesterday. But I feel like just chronicling my day is not what I need out of this. I am not sure what I need out of this. Starting to get into the habit of writing again is definitely something I need, but in the direction of what, I don't know.
I do know I need to start creative writing again, but the muse is currently quiet. Or the Daemon, as it used to be called.
I have been using my laptop for distraction for too long. In the time I have been writing this entry, I have stopped to check FB multiple times, read an article about shit that has nothing to do with me, and otherwise distracted myself. This is not good for creativity. Maybe I need to start meditating. The irony is that after typing that sentence, I reflexively checked FB. Not even thinking about it. I just did it.
So I will figure out a way to do this with fewer distractions in the future.
Right now I want to watch the Daily Show. Something else I'm too ADD to do.