Nov 07, 2005 23:17
...i'm tired...
when it comes to relationships...
i'm tired of giving and giving and giving and never feeling like i can sit back and take
i'm tired of being the one to say the sweet, nice things and not getting much in return
i'm tired of being 100 % supportive even when it means i don't get a thing from it and actually lose something because of it
i'm tired of admiring and loving people so much and then feeling unimportant to them and feeling like i should change
i'm tired of persuing and not being pursued
i'm tired of being the spiritual leader and always starting those converstations
i'm tired of getting upset for a good reason and then someone makes me feel bad about it
i'm tired of feeling like i'm not good enough
i'm tired of putting people on a pedistool
i'm tired of wondering if people even care
i'm tired of apologizing every time even when it's not my fault just to avoid a fight
i'm tired of sitting here waiting
ya'll...i'm tired!
and i've now learned after writing all of that down and just venting that God wants to make me less selfish and unconditional in my love towards others. he always reveals something to me about what i need to work on and be dependent on him for.