I can't ever get to sleep when I want to.
Well, it is 2:22 a.m. and here I am awake as I can be. There are a ton of reasons why I can't ever get to sleep at night but I'll just name a few.
My medicine keeps me up.
I can't take a sleeping pill with my anxiety pill so its either sleep and have nightmares, or don't sleep but be semi-relaxed for a few hours.
The idiotic part of my brain that hates me tells my body that I don't deserve sleep because it will make me feel better. (Most of me knows and believes I deserve to feel good a lot of the time)
Sometimes I have a crazy feeling that landslug will die in his sleep so I stay awake with my hand on his chest to make sure he's still breathing. (He's not even sick.)
I do not go to bed at the same time every night or wake up at the same time every day.
I guess that's enough of an explanation for now. I'm going to go read "Memories and Hallucinations" by D.M. Thomas now. Maybe that will get me sleepy.
My medicine keeps me up.
I can't take a sleeping pill with my anxiety pill so its either sleep and have nightmares, or don't sleep but be semi-relaxed for a few hours.
The idiotic part of my brain that hates me tells my body that I don't deserve sleep because it will make me feel better. (Most of me knows and believes I deserve to feel good a lot of the time)
Sometimes I have a crazy feeling that landslug will die in his sleep so I stay awake with my hand on his chest to make sure he's still breathing. (He's not even sick.)
I do not go to bed at the same time every night or wake up at the same time every day.
I guess that's enough of an explanation for now. I'm going to go read "Memories and Hallucinations" by D.M. Thomas now. Maybe that will get me sleepy.