The Silmaril and the Curse of Fingolfin
The Silmarils which encased the light of the Trees of Valinor - I have spoken of them before. Their curse, however, is what I speak of today. Long story short, Fingolfin (I believe this is the correct elf..) created them and coveted them above all else. After many years of war and much trouble, among which his death was one, his sons vowed to never rest until the Silmarils were in their possession. This was a horrible thing to do as they never found rest... each and every day the longing and lust for the Silmarils consumed them and sure enough, eventually consumed them...
Well let's see - double entry time I do believe. Yes indeed. One public, one private. Why the reference to a fathers bane? Well let's see... My Dad was married, divorced, married, adopted a son (whom he never heard from again), divorced, married, had me, divorced, married, dropped me, divorced, and then returned to being my Dad. So, naturally, after all of his talk about never wanting to get married again I get a phone call yesterday and sure enough - he's engaged - for the fifth time.
The lady is nice, it's just so damn rushed - again. I mean damnit Dad, come on. I'll never forget her making those inappropriate comments the day of his open heart surgery, never EVER. Even that bitch of an ex-wife CiCi knew that was over the line and she just looked at me with a "what the fuck did she just say?!" look.
If this is any forewarning of my future perhaps it's a GOOD thing I'm how I am. I'm very much like my Dad except I'm late because I do things, not because I screw off. I've seem to got my Mothers flare for argument but the (forbid it) level head of my Father. No doubt he has a temper - he's a bottle. He bottles it up and after so long of shaking it... it eventually explodes - as it did that ONE fateful night to most dire of consequences. *sigh*. We won't go there - perhaps on an individual basis but on here, too open to people..
Though I am a very OPEN person. Most anything I post on here I would tell someone who innocently inquired as to my life. Seriously. I'm so open, but there's a point - a point where I put up a wall. Very few have EVER got through this wall and those who did have no doubt that they have - or they shouldn't. I'm devastated when someone gets through my wall - I'm just very weary, because since I dont' have many exterior walls or even a moat to my emotional castle - all my defenses lie in the keep itself.
Alright basic update time -
I've moved into Spanton. It's really awesome, I've got an awesome staff, a nice room and who knows what's to come.
I went to the Medieval Fair with Sal, Ed, Tatar, Conley, Kulick, John and Ed's girlfriend. It truly was a most joyous time and I can't WAIT to go again.
I've got an awesomely massive fridge in my room.
Training has been sucking me dry - 9AM - 8PM EVERYDAY. It's all good though, a lot of learning, can't wait to start the whole RA thing.
I went to the Hall of Fame football game and Inauguration. Got to see Dan Marino through basically his last nationally televised football pass - about a 25-30 yard completion to Mark Clayton.
At the HOF game I lost a $5 bet to Seth :(
I was also unable to purchase a new Dan Marino Jersey - much to my own dismay :(
I've been playing out the single scene - as in doing absolutley nothing.
I was contacted by TWO ex-girlfriends within the last week, both of whom were ones to get past my inner defenses, oddly...
I've had a quite ironic turn of fate... and here's to hoping it works out how I'd like... *fingers crossed*. Not saying too much in fear of jinxing it but well... well if it works out, my happiness level would go up substantially - and no it's not money, it's a person ;)
If only one could always know what the other was thinking... like how do guys know when girls are flirting and not wanting to be a really good friend? Do girls read this? Do they respond or just smile out of courtesy? It's not a universal thing either, it's a person by person thing and damnit I just wish I could read someones mind for ONE DAY to figure it all out...
Friday I'm heading home to spend the night with John Bryan and Seth - I'm assuming will be the last time unless they come up here before they leave for OSU... well John and Seth that is.
Saturday is the Fraternity retreat and the rest of the time I'm going to be spending a lot of time working on Door Decorations and Boards for my hall - all next week.
Got some plans to go dancing next wednesday and a couple plans with Elissa so.. :) should be an interesting week.
Well let's see - double entry time I do believe. Yes indeed. One public, one private. Why the reference to a fathers bane? Well let's see... My Dad was married, divorced, married, adopted a son (whom he never heard from again), divorced, married, had me, divorced, married, dropped me, divorced, and then returned to being my Dad. So, naturally, after all of his talk about never wanting to get married again I get a phone call yesterday and sure enough - he's engaged - for the fifth time.
The lady is nice, it's just so damn rushed - again. I mean damnit Dad, come on. I'll never forget her making those inappropriate comments the day of his open heart surgery, never EVER. Even that bitch of an ex-wife CiCi knew that was over the line and she just looked at me with a "what the fuck did she just say?!" look.
If this is any forewarning of my future perhaps it's a GOOD thing I'm how I am. I'm very much like my Dad except I'm late because I do things, not because I screw off. I've seem to got my Mothers flare for argument but the (forbid it) level head of my Father. No doubt he has a temper - he's a bottle. He bottles it up and after so long of shaking it... it eventually explodes - as it did that ONE fateful night to most dire of consequences. *sigh*. We won't go there - perhaps on an individual basis but on here, too open to people..
Though I am a very OPEN person. Most anything I post on here I would tell someone who innocently inquired as to my life. Seriously. I'm so open, but there's a point - a point where I put up a wall. Very few have EVER got through this wall and those who did have no doubt that they have - or they shouldn't. I'm devastated when someone gets through my wall - I'm just very weary, because since I dont' have many exterior walls or even a moat to my emotional castle - all my defenses lie in the keep itself.
Alright basic update time -
I've moved into Spanton. It's really awesome, I've got an awesome staff, a nice room and who knows what's to come.
I went to the Medieval Fair with Sal, Ed, Tatar, Conley, Kulick, John and Ed's girlfriend. It truly was a most joyous time and I can't WAIT to go again.
I've got an awesomely massive fridge in my room.
Training has been sucking me dry - 9AM - 8PM EVERYDAY. It's all good though, a lot of learning, can't wait to start the whole RA thing.
I went to the Hall of Fame football game and Inauguration. Got to see Dan Marino through basically his last nationally televised football pass - about a 25-30 yard completion to Mark Clayton.
At the HOF game I lost a $5 bet to Seth :(
I was also unable to purchase a new Dan Marino Jersey - much to my own dismay :(
I've been playing out the single scene - as in doing absolutley nothing.
I was contacted by TWO ex-girlfriends within the last week, both of whom were ones to get past my inner defenses, oddly...
I've had a quite ironic turn of fate... and here's to hoping it works out how I'd like... *fingers crossed*. Not saying too much in fear of jinxing it but well... well if it works out, my happiness level would go up substantially - and no it's not money, it's a person ;)
If only one could always know what the other was thinking... like how do guys know when girls are flirting and not wanting to be a really good friend? Do girls read this? Do they respond or just smile out of courtesy? It's not a universal thing either, it's a person by person thing and damnit I just wish I could read someones mind for ONE DAY to figure it all out...
Friday I'm heading home to spend the night with John Bryan and Seth - I'm assuming will be the last time unless they come up here before they leave for OSU... well John and Seth that is.
Saturday is the Fraternity retreat and the rest of the time I'm going to be spending a lot of time working on Door Decorations and Boards for my hall - all next week.
Got some plans to go dancing next wednesday and a couple plans with Elissa so.. :) should be an interesting week.