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"calm down"
"calm down"
I can't calm the fuck down.
I cannot.
I'm lethargically freaking out.
I can't sit still but I am sitting still at the same time;
and I keep eating and wandering about because I'd rather pretend I have all the time in the world than face the fact that I do not.
I do not understand why why WHY I am not doing better.
Why am I not soaring through these tests and why do I seem hardly buoyant at all.
One single mistake and I've lost all points.
One stupid ass fucking mistake and I have failed.
I'm tired of these tiny errors!
They remind me of tape worms; fucking nuisance
I hate school because it makes me hate learning which makes me hate school even more.
This system fucking blows.
"calm down"
I can't calm the fuck down.
I cannot.
I'm lethargically freaking out.
I can't sit still but I am sitting still at the same time;
and I keep eating and wandering about because I'd rather pretend I have all the time in the world than face the fact that I do not.
I do not understand why why WHY I am not doing better.
Why am I not soaring through these tests and why do I seem hardly buoyant at all.
One single mistake and I've lost all points.
One stupid ass fucking mistake and I have failed.
I'm tired of these tiny errors!
They remind me of tape worms; fucking nuisance
I hate school because it makes me hate learning which makes me hate school even more.
This system fucking blows.