serious 1.

[moose_camel]

frankly, my inability to do well in my studies is due to the fact that my mother doesnt have the confidence in me, much less see the potential in me getting good grades as compared to my other siblings(i cant deny the fact tt my other siblings are smarter than me). this is evident although she doesnt show in directly. she questions my inability to pass tests even though she knows that i do study for them. a few years back, my mom once told me tt she didnt even think of me making into express after PSLE since my eng, math, and sci grades are always average. how ironic since i was in em1. recently, she told me tt she once thought i couldnt make it to jc cause she was worried that my Os results didnt permit me to do so(to begin with, it's not wonderful at all), and tt i would have to go to poly. had i known this, i would have just gone to poly, la. it's aching to learn tt while you're all full of optimism and drive to succeed, someone just had to come by and pop the bubble. she should at least realise that i'm a late bloomer. comparing me and those those with some classmates with better Os grades, i guess i'm on par with them. so isnt tt an improvement?(yes, Os grade shouldnt be used as a benchmark) so what does she wants now? straight As? if you badly want the 3As i'll give it to you. and i've always thought tt the most important thing is to put all your effort in doing a particular task. but i guess i'm wrong. in our society, the outcome outweighs the effort put in. so i guess it'll be a wrong to get anything less than an A.

and what's wrong with winding down a little after prelims have ended? i'm just ensuring tt i dont burn out too fast. not to mention getting saturated, just like what happened during Os.