Oct 25, 2004 12:56
It seems like I make everything worse. I don't try to, but it just seems to be that way.Jessica and I used to be really good friends, but it doesn''t seem to be the case anymore. I really liked Emily, and now she's not even talking to me. I don't get it, but it makes me sad.I wish things were different, but it doesn't look like things will change. Jessica says things aren't going to be like they were before, and I hope that things aren't too far off from where we started.
Emily is still upset with me because she thinks I didn't handle things with Jessica very well. I don't think that its her buisness, but she thinks she's being a good friend to Ica. I like the fact that she thinks that she's doing the right thing, and that's why I like her ever so, but she shouldn't be interfering and she shouldn't let this affect our relationship. Man, life is so compelx. I used to think that if you liked someone then you should just go out with them. I never thought that you may not be able to go out with them for their own good.
I love all my friends and I hate it when they are mad at me. It's absolutely the worst feeling ever. It also makes me sad to think that despite my intentions, I end up hurting everyone. I am sad. I have often thought about just telling people that we are no longer friends, and that way, I couldn't hurt them. I don't know though, life without friends is a sad life indeed. I just wish I knew of something I could do that would fix this. Oh well, I think I will call Emily and Ica today. I will see what's going on.